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Is God slamming doors in our face....Or are we running into them head first?

Apr 08, 2011 - 2 comments
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Okay! I've been through hell & back here on earth. In 1996 my 4 month old baby was killed, CPS took my other children while investigating her death.2 months later her daddy admitted to killing her....



For the next 5 years.......I emotionally died & buried my self with my baby. I have no memories of my other 2 children(the oldest was 20 months and the other was my deceased babies twin) I couldn't tell you when the surviving twin started crawling,walking,talking-NONE OF HER 1ST. I have absolutely NO good & fond memories,the only memories I can lay claim to is the HELL I was living in!



And one day (a little over 5 years later) I just "woke the hell up". I hope nor NO one else ever gets sentenced to "that kind of hell on earth".



soooooooooo, what did I did? I started really "feeling" and "living" and "learned how to be". I'd say for the 1st time ever. Since I knew what it was like to be living in hell, I decided I was the only ONE who could do something about it!



Yes, I still cry for my lost baby-On the other hand, I reach out to those who have suffered this lose. I cry as I tell my story-not b/c of my loss,but b/c ppl have NO IDEA how "good" they have things in life!



So u ask a/b who's slamming the doors?? And I think, If we FAIL to reach out to others and perhaps fail to learn his lessons-THEN IT IS WE WHO HAS SLAMMED THE DOOR OR MANY DOORS

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by Creampuffy, Apr 08, 2011
I am so sorry for your loss and the horrible experience you have gone through. The world we live in is full of evil and it is difficult or even impossible  to avoid some of it. Many people blame our Creator for the badness that happens but it is not Jehovah God who causes it. Instead, it is his arch enemy Satan who is misleading the entire world. If you have a bible look up Revelation 12 verse 9. But, at Revelation 20 verses 1-3  the bible also reveals that Satan will be prevented from terrorizing people. The time of Satan's imprisonment is almost here. After his imprisonment the earth will be changed and healing for people will begin. Revelation 21 verses 3 and 4.

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by AnnaMariaQQss, Apr 10, 2011
ty Creampuffy

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