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Dumbest. Panic Attack. Ever!

Apr 08, 2011 - 7 comments

I had the weirdest panic attack ever. The other day at work I was reading about "locked-in syndrome", which I SHOULD NOT have been looking at considering my ridiculous health anxiety. And for the love of everything, if you don't know what it is, DON'T GOOGLE IT.

Anyway. Basically I think it is the worst thing that could happen to someone in my honest opinion. Being trapped completely in your own body? No thank you.

So I was trying to go to sleep and I started thinking about it. I read about people who got it after strokes, and 2 of them were really young. One was a teen involved in a car accident, and the second was a 26 year old mother of 2. I thought about how awful it was and how it hit them really out of nowhere. Then I became convinced within a split second that it was about to happen to me.

I got the heat traveling through my body and that stupid surge of adrenaline. I couldn't breathe and I was shaking uncontrollably. The whole time I knew how stupid it was and I kept telling myself to calm the eff down and stop being ridiculous, and it kinda worked. I didn't have a full blown attack, but it's the most intense attack I've had in quite a while.

Ever since then my anxiety has been fairly high, but still managable. I'm an idiot and stopped taking my prozac because I figured I was doing so well and I'm on such a small dose that I could go without it. I did this without doctor's permission. I know I am an idiot, and I definitely won't be doing that again.

I'm worried because I just booked a trip to Vegas for the end of May, and I'm flying. I've flown before but I haven't since I started having panic attacks. I'm really, really terrified that I'm going to have one on the plane and make a fool of myself.

Ugh. One day at a time.

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by bbxx, Apr 08, 2011
Well the good news is you can not make this happen to yourself and it is very very rare! Just keep reminding urself its just the anxiety. No worries you will be fine!

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by FurballsMom, Apr 08, 2011
I do understand anxiety, as I have General Anxiety Disorder myself.  The above advice isn't bad advice at all.  One additional thing you can do to keep yourself calmer for the plane trip is to ask the doctor for just a little bit of Ativan for the trip.  It isn't a good idea to regularly take Ativan, because one can become addicted to this medication, but if you know how to control how much you use, you can use just the little bit for while you are flying.  So, this would mean only a few individual pills would be prescribed, which will prevent the overuse of the medication.  Old fashioned Valium can be used the same way.  If you don't have an addiction problem to this kind of medication and can use it responsibly, it will help.  If you do have an addiction problem, though, you could try some of the natural herbs such as valerian root and passion flower.  Also, make sure that from now 'til you take your trip and during your trip you follow a healthy diet and take your B vitamins.  B vitamins are energizing, but they're also very calming on the nervous system.  So is optimizing the diet.  NO CAFFEINE.  None at all.  It so doesn't help when one is prone to panic or anxiety attacks.  I'm more prone to anxiety attacks than full on panic attacks, so I know it's necessary to avoid caffeine during the spikes when this is more likely to happen to me.  

Check out Mercola's articles about EFT and see if this is something you can investigate.  It's a totally drug free option.  Looks a bit strange to onlookers, but totally better than exploding into a panic attack on the plane.  You may even be able to follow the technique before getting on the plane and have that be enough.  But, if not, it's still better than a full on panic attack.  You'll have your dignity in tact, even if just a few people do see you doing this--if you do need to do it while sitting on the plane.  Knowing you have this totally drug free option may even be just enough to actually avert the panic attack all together.  You don't have to have anything with you to do the EFT option other than the knowledge of how to do it.  No worries about whether you can get into your luggage or your carry on or having enough of the medication and no worries about being addicted to something.

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by kev543, Apr 08, 2011
i totally understand how that could happen but i also understand how you somewhat controlled it. the idea of it being ridiculous and in a way you casted it away from yourself. I had anxiety attacks when i was a younger man to the point where i would ball up and cry and did not want to live the house but one day i guess you could say i snapped. i remember my father telling me when i was a kid that you should not fear anything until you have too and then you look it dead in the eyes and charge. he was an old Korean War Vet. Anyways, about the time a thought of that i felt myself get extremely angry at this thing that was controlling my life and i decided to charge. i told myself i would no longer allow it to hold me back. needless to say it did fight back and there were several times that i was ready to give up but i kept going even through that miserable, uncormfortable feeling. i said if your gonna kill me then bring it on. you'll have to do it in public with everbody staring at me. I know how hard that sounds. your thinking, this dude is crazy but i havent had an attack in 12 yrs. and i dont take medication.

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by bbxx, Apr 08, 2011
Kev--that is GREAT! I love the advice! Congrats on no panic attacks!

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by SummerRae, Apr 09, 2011
Wendy, i hate to see you are still posting about your panic attacks:( Please look up Charles Linden on YouTube, he explains everything! I'm no spokesperson for him by any means, I just know he has helped me tremendously. He is from the UK but no doctors or psychiatrists have ever done anything for me like this program has. just try it , check it out, it is your quality of life we are talking about! you wont regret it.

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by kev543, Apr 11, 2011
Thanks bbxx. I think that our mind is stronger than we at first can imagine but that doesn't mean it cant be controlled. When i decided to take it back, i had to be fully commited to fight. I had to be aware that i might be surrounded by people who wouldn't understand and it could be imbearrasing and intimidating but i felt that my life was worth fighting for, no matter what the outcome was. I started to reflect on what life was like before the anxiety and how happy i was and how much i took it for granite. Another key ingredient in this victory was prayer. I did not ask for God to just take it away, dont get me wrong, i did do that in the beginning but not this time. instead, i prayed for victory over this Demon and the strength to face it without hesitation. it was like my enter spirit became renewed. Just when i thought i was surely done for something inside said getup and fight, your still alive. Another thing that helped is instead of laying down and waiting for death, i became more active. i started walking and challenging myself to do more than i was comfortable with. baby steps of coarse but steps none the less. I also  fought off those ridiculous thoughts off sickness and disease by telling myself that there is a time for death and a time for life and i will live even after death, so why fear death when it has lost its sting. I know this to be true because this is my strength. i realized that jesus did die in our place and he took those burdens on his shoulders for a reason. to free us from its grip.... I'm no saint. i dont walk perfectly in his foot steps but i know now how to call on him and he will deliver..

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by FurballsMom, Apr 11, 2011
Right on.  I think I generally follow the mind over matter advice I'm reading.  I don't get the intensity or number of attacks so much any more.  Occasionally, but usually not without an outside stressor.  This is a big deal to anyone with anxiety or panic attacks.  I'm grateful I don't get the full on panic attacks, but anxiety attacks are no picnic either.  Still, I only get them occasionally.  So, I know what kev543 is talking about is true.  I only avoid some things, but not life in general.  So, it really is a matter of mind over matter in the general life sense.  I like how kev543 mentions that instead of asking God to just take it away to ask God to strengthen oneself to endure and conquer.  It definitely makes a difference.  I like the idea of taking it one day at a time and taking baby steps, too.  This is actually true of all aspects of life.  We have to make goals which are actually attainable.  If there is a bigger goal, then the idea of baby steps is to break down the bigger goal into smaller sub goals that will be more attainable but progressive towards the larger goal.  None of us can follow Jesus' footsteps perfectly, as we are all born of Adam who received the mark of sin when he rebelled in the Garden of Eden before he and Eve had their first children.  Thus, our imperfect state.  We always have to strive for doing better than before and miss the mark because of our imperfect state.  It's good to remember this, so we don't become overly critical of ourselves when we do miss the mark.  We might get disgusted with ourselves from time to time, but we have to pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and go on striving for that goal in order to keep hope ahead of ourselves in the forefront of our minds.  Hold onto your hope and keep reaching for your goal and you will find your way to your goal.

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