Sep 18, 2008
After watching Dr. Phil on Wednesday i felt like i had to voice my opinion. Not me...right?! LOL!! I dont like him to begin with! He aggravates the **** out of me!
Maybe he will call me to be on the show! LOL!!! I'll bring all of you with!
Heres the letter i emailed to him!..........................................................
I just watched your show with the mother addicted to pills. I cried. I, 10 months ago , was exactly here she was. Not to the full extent as far as usage but i was taking my fair share. I did not wake up one day and decide to be an addict. I did dstart the pain meds for legit reasons and i took more and more as my tolerance went up. I knew i had a problem and it took me along to to admit that to myself let alone anyone else. I know you do the tough love thing but she as there, she was crying for help. In my opinion you made her feel worse about herself. She already knew she was wrong. It takes so much strenghth to admit and ask for the help. You just can 't stop. Its not as easy as everyone thinks. I wish it was. I am 290 days clean and sober today! Inever was a bad mom i was a sick mom. I did it not only for me but for my kids. They needed a sober mommy!! I hated going threw withdrawls and being crabby when i ran out of pills. I know it hurts your loved ones but it also hurts you...the addict. I knew i was sick but i was scared and embaressed. Yes i was selfish but i turned that around and i am stronger person today because of it. I am not niave. I know addiction is a life long fight. If it was easy it would not be called a fight. I live now day by day. Sometimes minute by minute. It is the hardest thing i ever have done and i did it by myself. I didnt have the option of going away for help.
I really dont think society as a whole really understand how big of a problem there is with RX pain medication. Where i live they call them mommies little helpers. Everyone i know takes them. Most not for legit pain.
I really would like to knwo how she is doing as far as her recovery goes. Its a scary thing and i hope she stays strong and fights with all she has. It really does take every ounce of energy and strength you have not only to get clean but to stay clean. Sometimes now i think that getting clean was the easy part its staying clean that is the hardest part. The cravings do get far and few in between the longer i am clean and i have learned how to get threw those tuff times. I have a support group online. Yes online. That forum and my friends i have made there are my support. I would not be as far as i am and learned as much as i have with out them. Everyone dealing with addiction needs support. Doesnt matter how or were you find that support but when you find it you hold on to it! Its your lifeline!
Thank you for your time. I just wanted you to know from another addicted mommy what its really like and my thoughts on it in general.