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May 18, 2011 - 2 comments









clean from methadone

So alot in my life has changed over the past 2 months. I have gotten off of methadone, found christ, buried my great uncle, lived thru about 9 tornados in one day alone, and now my stepmom has brain cancer. All I can say is wow when it rains it pours. Withdrawals from the methadone are pretty well gone already thank god. I dont know that I could handle withdrawals and everything that is going on right now. My sister is still using very heavily (crack, meth, benzo's and no telling what else). I have had to be the strong one in the family as my dad is a vietnam vet and he is dissabled and everything is taking a toll on him right now. They just took my step mom 3 hours away to get her treatments started (radiation). They have already told her "this is not a cure simply a service" so now its time to just sit back and wait and let the cards fall. But if there is anything I hate its waiting.

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by agreeneyedcat, Oct 13, 2011

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by JenniferLutt, Oct 13, 2011
That's not all. Since this post my step mom passed away, both cars tore up one beyond repair so we had to borrow money to buy a new one only for my husband to get laid off a few weeks later. So now we are struggling to make ends meet but I know deep down as long as I keep my faith in the Lord above everything will work out. I am very stressed but not to the point of going back to using even tho I want to so badly but I know that is not a option. I have came so far that going back would just be stupid on my part. I try to stay dug into my school work and getting my degree in law so that helps a lot and believe it or not getting my tattoos (that my loving husband does) is a major stress releaver right now. So I encourage anyone that thinks they cant do it any more to read what I am going thru and think is it really that bad. I hope that I can help at least one person out there if you would like to know my life story I will gladly send it to you I haven't put it on here b/c it is long but I have been thru a lot in my life (not to say that you haven't been thru more or worse) but I may have some insight and can help.

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