May 26, 2011
At 1:30 AM on Wednesday, I woke up with strong period like cramps. I went to the bathroom and when I wiped I saw blood. It wasn't spotting either it was bright red and I paniked. I woke my husband up and called my RE right away. The oncall doctor advised me to wait until I go for my u/s and b/w in the morning as scheduled. I was having such pain and the bleeding was so heavy I told my husband that we needed to go to the hospital. So, after a few hours in the hospital I was told by the doctor that I am having twins but that my hormone levels are very low for a twin pregnancy and that I was in the begining stages of a miscarriage. My husband and I were devastated. I was still experiencing cramps but the bleeding did stop after the nurse removed a clot on my cervix. She said that it would stop the bleeding. Shorlty after that, I was spotting and then it finally stopped. We left the hospital and went directly to RE to get a consult. I explained to the covering doctor of what happened. She said that hospitals are not fertility specialists and that we didn't need to go to the ER. I was so angry when she said that, I mean really... with all the books I have they all say to go to the ER if you have heavy bleeding and painful cramps! Well, she proceeded to do the u/s and said that she saw 2 perfect gestational sacs and that I am still in the game. I then started to cry. This day was supposed to be the happiest day and it was just a complete nightmare. They took blood from me and waited for their call. We went home so exhausted. I was numb and didn't know what kind of news I was going to get later in the day. I got the phone call @ 2pm and was told everything was fine and that what I experienced was normal. I still feel that It was not normal but hey they are doctors. I am still in shock that I am carrying twins and I can't bring myself to celebrate b/c I am scared that I will lose them. I am also angry b/c I have been through so much to get here and to have this scary thing happen it's like someone is playing a cruel joke. I'd like to add that the hospital beta was way off... they said my beta was 9722.0. I asked for my progesterone and estrogen and the doctor looked at me like I was crazy. The results from the RE beta was 11,487 progesterone was 3.8 a bit low but not below 3 and estrogen was 238. Today, I feel fine and no bleeding or cramps. I still want an explaination of what happened but I have to trust that the RE doctors know what they are doing and if they say I am ok then I really am ok.