Jun 05, 2011
We leave tomorrow for Ogden where I will have the ablation. I'm ready to do this and hoping for the best. My heart has been so regular lately and I almost talk myself out of it. Then I remember all of the scary attacks I've had and never want to have another. When I'm alone and have them I go for the phone and have it in my hand in case I can't get this to convert back. If I'm at school, I'm so afraid something terrible will happen during one of these attacks and I will die in front of my kids and how much that would traumatize them. Always, always, I've remained calm during an attack knowing to do otherwise would make the situation worse. I can hardly imagine living the next 20+ years without these. We'll see on Tuesday.