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My war with addiction, I need a friend to help me!!!!

Jun 15, 2011 - 1 comments

need a friend??

Hello everyone, I have battled with my addiction for years.  I was on methadone and Xanax for about 5 years and saved my money and had an expensive detox procedure done to get off those meds.  I have not re-used methadone but now, a year later I have re-lapsed at least three times with vicodin and I also take ambien for sleep.  I DON'T WANT THIS ANYMORE.  I am now taking about eight 10mg vicodin a day and have been doing so for about 3 weeks.  I detoxed cold turkey this past weekend for three days and now am back on it so I can stay straight at work.  I am very knowledgeable on detox procedures and I am sort of an expert on what to do to detox.  I am familiar with all the different methods and drugs needed to detox.

My problem is I need a friend or sponsor to help me stay straight.  My wife helps a lot but she doesn't understand.  I am so desperate to stop I am driving myself crazy cause I want my life back.  I want to be normal so badly.  Although vicodin make life easier and more tolerable, not to mention makes my job so much better, it is killing me to keep doing this.  Any help or words of encouragement will be greatly appreciated and I would like to help anyone in anyway I can.  I think talking with people who understand what I am going through will help me finally beat this thing.  To everyone, stay strong and God Bless...

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by stolemyjoy, Jun 15, 2011
it's a living hell and we feel as if we are prisoners to this right? I'm trying to get off the vicodins myself and my hubby likes to take them but doesnt have the W/D's when he doesnt so he isnt supportive when I do have them! I'm afraid he will leave me if I dont get off them! Some say cold turkey but I cant do it! It's too hard to take care of my kids or house or myself for that matter when I'm detoxing!!! I'm trying to ween myself off and today I only took one and a half of a hydro 10,
I wish you so much luck! You can do it if you really want to!!!!!! I need to practice what I preach! God bless you too!!!!

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