Sep 24, 2008
Last night I dreamed I was at a bookstore and I had Emma with me in her car seat and we were walking around and she started to cry so I found a chair and sat down to breastfeed her. Well I was got out the blanket I would use to cover myself with while feeding her and when I went to get her out of her car seat she wasn't there! I started screaming someone had stolen my baby and got up and was running around the entire store and some a couple of women were like, okay we'll help you find her and were helping me look and then we spotted her down a random aisle eating a potato chip off of the ground. I grabbed it from her and picked her up and just cried and cried. Well I woke up right about then and I was actually crying and my heart was beating SO fast and hard like I had really been running.
well I got up and took a cold shower. And even though I know none of that really happened, somehow the dream made me feel like i will be a bad mom. I've always been so confident that I will be a great mother but maybe deep down I really doubt myself. Well it was SUCH a vivid dream and that fear was so real it was just so scary. That was a really intense panic, it kinda ruined my sleep I didn't wake up feeling rested at all. But basically I am just a little surprised that my first baby scare happened before she was even born. =/