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Once again, let's add more waiting time to my life.

Jul 03, 2011 - 13 comments

I really feel all over the place today.  My meeting on Friday to choose my 2nd and 3rd choice was really great.  For one thing I find out that my first choice is now cycling in August.  And on top of that I find out that I may be put on a list if anyone else requested her before me.  What the heck?? Why don't they tell you this to begin with.  I told my dh I'm ready to say forget this - not for nothing I'm tired of the constant draw backs and the waiting.  Most of all I'm tired of never getting all the information from this RE and his office staff.  It's so annoying.  One of my other choices, I would be 4th on the list.  So now here I wait once again to August - to find out where I stand in the line of order. Absolutely ridiculous.  

I can't go anywhere else because I can't afford anyone else's donor program - I can barely afford this.  

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by Kricket212, Jul 03, 2011
Hang in there & don't give up.  Your child is out there...  Is there anyway you can pick one that is available now?  Ask who is & then see if you like any of the choices.
Which clinic are you using? New HOpe?

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by Kricket212, Jul 03, 2011
I promise your child will be worth the wait.  Your turn will be here before you know it.

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by globetrot, Jul 03, 2011
They sound very disorganized.  I am so sorry you are going through this.  I posted on your page before I read this.  It just seem odd to me that 4 people are waiting a head of you- but they do not take action until you put in your request????  I am so sorry you can't go to another clinic- especially since you are not excited about the donors.  Have you thought about traveling to another area- things just seem so expensive in the northeast.  Hang in there- it will all be worth it!

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by journey2motherhood, Jul 04, 2011
I really wish I had the money to go somewhere else but I don't.  I barely can afford this.  

Kricket - I did look at the donors that were available immediately unfortunately there's no one I'm interested in.  

I am waiting now (once again) for answers.  

I have to say I'm feeling a little defeated.  

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by mhv, Jul 04, 2011
You and I are waiting experts.  You don't know how many times I have wanted to scream from the top of my lungs "I QUIT!!!"..   With the way the clinic was so crappy with me at the last minute, and then all the hoops I had to jump though to get them moved to OH... It was absolutely heart breaking, and exausting!!!   I, am still waiting, don't forget.... I don't have a transfer date yet, and I figure it will be in Aug.  But, for some reason, God wants us to wait.  I don't know why.... but for some reason he does.  I am right here with you waiting... so don't feel alone!  I have to start being healthier though... but I think alcohol has become a big waiting crutch for me! HAHA!!  (not a alcoholic or anything. just saying, it's summer, fluids are flowings...)  

Anyway, someday, when we are patting our big fat pregnant belly's.. we will be saying it's all worth it!!!

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by usuk, Jul 05, 2011
Don't quit. I was on a list. I was # 35 in April. By June I was top ten. Thought I was lucky. Now A month later I am still only # 7. I heard many teachers donate so early summer moves fast and by end of summer it slows down. Hang in there. The only thing that ever works is not giving up.

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by melimeli, Jul 05, 2011
picking a donor must be extremely hard.  You are faced with making a choice that will affect your future child.  That being said with an adoption you don't get to choose either parent and those children are perfect to their adoptive parents.  Maybe you could just leave it with God and say any donor that is ready for me now God will be fine for my child.. don't know have never been there just a thought

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by Hopeful4aBlessing, Jul 06, 2011
Isn't it just absolutely unacceptable to deal with the RE's?! I'm having such communication issues with mine as well. They don't tell you enough or all of the information- just enough to get your hopes up and to have you wait some more! Hang in there though... this path to motherhood isn't for the weak that's for sure! We're all here for you to listen anytime and assist! Hope you get some great news soon! :)

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by journey2motherhood, Jul 06, 2011
Well you are all going to think I'm crazy, but I think my second choice for donor, may actually become my first choice! Ugh - decisions, decisions lol!

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by carolyn865, Jul 07, 2011
How frustrating for you!  I'm so sorry.
Whatever you decide, it will be worth the wait and all the frustration!!!  
Go with your gut -- hope everything works out soon-- xo Carolyn

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by Kricket212, Jul 07, 2011
I think Melimeli said it best...........leave it up to God & what will be will be with who is avail next.   As long as they are healthy, nothing else really matters.

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by journey2motherhood, Jul 07, 2011
You know what - you are all right.  I'm actually going to use my second choice as my first choice because she will be cycling sooner.  Not only that, both are really great, I actually feel like they are both my first choices lol.  I'm filling out all the paperwork now and getting ready to send it in!! Wow I'm actually getting somewhere finally.  

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by plumber43, Jul 07, 2011
I'm sending you great big hugs!
Love Mel

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