Jul 11, 2011
Why when things start going good it always gets all messed up again. I'm so sick of all this. Seriously. I don't even know what's happening with everything anymore. Ugh. Just going day by day -- hour by hour, like everyone else. It's so hard for me -- I'm used to planning out everything way in advance and knowing what I'm going to be doing before doing anything. Now I'm just "going with the flow" and I hate it. I'm putting my faith in the Lord that everything will work out for the good and soon. Sometimes I feel as though when I tell someone something that is happening in my life good it jinxes it and things get screwed up. I'm not very superstitious at all, but it happens EVERY single time. Constant coincidences? Starting to doubt that. I'm not telling anyone anything anymore. Please keep my family in your prayers!