Just when you think you have everything in control, something happens that messes it all up and makes you look like you know nothing. I am not careless, I am not who some think I am. Why cant I seem to control everything. Im only at peace when its all controled by me. No surprises. My mind is going a million miles an hour.. from school, work, personal, family, my mind isnt shutting off. I took a bath to relax and that didnt even come close to working. The thoughts I had and the non-stop worry and anxiety just stayed in my brain. I cant relax. I didnt even have coffee today. All I can do is pray. Pray everything works out - pray and remember everything always works out. Gotta keep moving forward and try to relax and somehow turn my brain off and feel assured.... Such a roller coaster of emotions. I can just cry at any point and I just might let myself.