Aug 27, 2011
It is day 12 into my treatment and I am finally getting around to documenting my HCV journey to recovery. I will accept no less than recovery, mentally, at this stage of the game. What happens down the road, well, I will deal with that then.
Just a couple of days before I started treatment, it finally hit me, while sitting at a stop light, what one of the nagging, disconcerting, feelings I had been having, was all about. It was this..... I did not know who I was going to become during this time. Would I still know ME. Everything I was reading about what side effects can do to a person was so alien to me. As a person who is easy going, even natured, always on the go, energetic, teaches Zumba Fitness classes, and RARELY sick, ( not to mention, high fatty food intake is not my style) the mere concept of becoming a stranger to myself, the total oppposite of me, myself and I, was very scary and unsettling.
Well,12 days into this, I am happy to say, I am still me. Starting was the worst part. After that day, my 'new normal' began. Now, I am more ready to embrace what may come,even if it means I have to re-introduce myself to myself.
I have had NONE of what I feared, with one exception, the rash, which started on Day 3 as a small patch on my stomach and grew from there to include inner arms ( wrist to shoulder), inner legs, behind the knees, and the trunk area. It is getting much better as of today. Thank you Lord!
No 'flu' like symptoms, at all, from the Pegasys shots. Nothing! Wouldn't even know I took a shot. I hope this gives encouragement to anyone who may read this before they start. Not one day of nausea. I have a good appetite, but I watch my calories real well so all those extra fat calories don't creep up on me. I can still exercise and run around all day, when I need to, but I take it easy so I don't inadvertantly overdo things.I will say that I can begin to feel a bit winded, faster than before and I do get tired faster, but really only feel it when I sit down. I know all this anemia, fatigue stuff is around the corner for me, but as of today.....smooth sailing!
One of the things that falls under the category of my ' new normal', is that my days are pretty much all about WHEN to eat, ( pill time) and WHAT to eat, and WAITING for the next fat snack, to take my INCIVEK. No more impromptu meals or snacks or going to bed when I want or getting up when I want. Not easy for a free spirit like me... LOL
I have a lot of faith, and pray to a God that I know can hear me. I trust HIM. If HE can bring me to it, HE can bring me through it! Amen!