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Sep 01, 2011 - 6 comments

First off- thank you for the prayers and kind words.  The amount of support you ladies provide is unbelievable and appreciated.  I am just now going through the posts on my last journal because every time I would read one- I would break down.  I appreciate each and every one of you.

Okay- today I feel the way I wish I would have yesterday- does that make sense!?!  I need to start researching and get my self ready for my next appointment on Tuesday.  Waitn838 is going through the same thing and is being monitored closely- I do not know why the high risk dr made it seem like I need surgery right now.  Maybe because he has not worked in a facility that specialized and her Dr has and knows more.  I will have to travel to go to a facility.  The closest location is Miami- but that is just one person.  I might go there for a consultation.  I just do not know what to do right now.  I would rather go to one of the top hospitals for this if I need surgery.  I am still scared of all the things the high risk dr. (is there an abbreviation for that?!?!?! HRD maybe) said- he painted a pretty bleak picture.  I left there feeling like either my babies would not make it or they would have cerebal palsey- and I think there are some successes out there!  I am praying to be one of them.  I have always said- this is God's plan, we have adjusted God's plan by using DE, but ultimately it is God's will and God's plan.  I am praying for mercy.  It is a miracle we have gotten this far and I am thankful for the blessings I have.

OH- I have a story.  It was kind of a circus when I first got there- one sonographer came in and got started with me then they pulled her out to go to a meeting- there was someone waiting outside for her in a car and her boss was on the phone- it was kind of unprofessional.  Anyway the second sonographer came in.  She was chatting with me while she did the initial tests.  I thought she was in her mid-50's.  Anyway- she said to me she and the other sonographer were both my age and they thought I was crazy for having a baby at my age- can you believe it- the NERVE.  She does not know me- she does not know my story.  It was just so rude and insensitive.  Then I told her how I had to delay getting pregnant to care for my Mother.  I did not owe her any explaination- I wish I would have told her I thought she was a jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I think next time I will make it a point to request the other sonographer.

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by journey2motherhood, Sep 01, 2011
I'm happy to hear that you are feeling better today.  You are a fighter and look how much you have been through to get here.  I am confident that you will find the right protocol, dr, and sonographer (errrr, she was dam rude!) and that you will get through this.  In the meantime, we are all here for you to vent, cry , scream or just for support.  I will continue to keep you in my thoughts and prayers!! Joann xo

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by retta483, Sep 01, 2011
honey Its none of her darn business why you waited to have kids . I swear the nerve of some people  you deserve what you want and I think those twins are blessing from the lord  Keep praying i believe everything will be ok  I tried right away after my dd was born took 7 years though and i thought it would take a long time for the third i got pg with him when my 2nd was 5 months and the last three were suprises :)  my 7th that i lost was a very much wanted baby :(  so Im still here and im going to keep on keeping on until i get that bfp one last time. praying for you ~

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by retta483, Sep 01, 2011
o and dont ever be afraid to get a secound oppinion i do that when i need to . sometimes two people ( dr's ) will have a diffrent opinion or been threw it before . hang on sweetie  it will be  ok  :)

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by tones99, Sep 01, 2011
that is unbelievable that she thought it was ok to comment on your maternal age!!!  I am not polite to people who say stupid things like that .. they don't deserve it!  I say that as we have spent 6 years trying to have our baby, of course I'm going to be a bit older than mum's who succeeded straight away!  that shuts them up .. I am so sorry you have this stressful situation to go through and hope that you get the help and support you need

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by Moma_Cher, Sep 01, 2011
Glad your feeling more empowered tidy. Rest assured there will be many ups and downs to follow, so give yourself permission to go through whatever you need to. As for that sono tech... One word... B I T C H.

Sending love and support and prayers your way.

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by waitn838, Sep 06, 2011
please feel free to email me any time if you have questions....i am upset for you that your doc painted such a bleak pic....that is not the impression i got at all....yes it can be serious but if you catch it early enough then the chances for survival are greater

im now 23 weeks and i have to be 24 weeks for babies to be vital....i am so close!!! my doc also told me after 26 weeks if i were to develop TTTS the only option is delivery because at that point the babies have a better overall success rate in nicu care than the surgery because of their size

i am also at a high risk for preterm labor because i suffered a loss at 18 weeks and then had my daughter at 32 weeks....both time my water broke without any reason....

bedrest & boost shakes!!! :)

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