Sep 01, 2011
First off- thank you for the prayers and kind words. The amount of support you ladies provide is unbelievable and appreciated. I am just now going through the posts on my last journal because every time I would read one- I would break down. I appreciate each and every one of you.
Okay- today I feel the way I wish I would have yesterday- does that make sense!?! I need to start researching and get my self ready for my next appointment on Tuesday. Waitn838 is going through the same thing and is being monitored closely- I do not know why the high risk dr made it seem like I need surgery right now. Maybe because he has not worked in a facility that specialized and her Dr has and knows more. I will have to travel to go to a facility. The closest location is Miami- but that is just one person. I might go there for a consultation. I just do not know what to do right now. I would rather go to one of the top hospitals for this if I need surgery. I am still scared of all the things the high risk dr. (is there an abbreviation for that?!?!?! HRD maybe) said- he painted a pretty bleak picture. I left there feeling like either my babies would not make it or they would have cerebal palsey- and I think there are some successes out there! I am praying to be one of them. I have always said- this is God's plan, we have adjusted God's plan by using DE, but ultimately it is God's will and God's plan. I am praying for mercy. It is a miracle we have gotten this far and I am thankful for the blessings I have.
OH- I have a story. It was kind of a circus when I first got there- one sonographer came in and got started with me then they pulled her out to go to a meeting- there was someone waiting outside for her in a car and her boss was on the phone- it was kind of unprofessional. Anyway the second sonographer came in. She was chatting with me while she did the initial tests. I thought she was in her mid-50's. Anyway- she said to me she and the other sonographer were both my age and they thought I was crazy for having a baby at my age- can you believe it- the NERVE. She does not know me- she does not know my story. It was just so rude and insensitive. Then I told her how I had to delay getting pregnant to care for my Mother. I did not owe her any explaination- I wish I would have told her I thought she was a jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think next time I will make it a point to request the other sonographer.