Friday Sep 23rd

Back from my holiday to the beach w/ boyfriend. Went okay, except that we started drinking and that didn't end well. Not sleeping well, freaking out at 'things' in the dark again. Dream-/nightmare-filled sleep, not fun. Trying to finish off cleaning my room. Going out to a party tonight, not allowed to drink.

Oreo (my now lonely rat) is crabby...

EDIT: Remembered that Tuesday afternoon I felt very manic. I was cleaning up my room like crazy (think I mentioned that in Tuesday journal), then bf turned up and I wasn't ready, so I ran around getting dressed and packing my bag. He let me drive over to the island and I was talking so fast, couldn't concentrate, my eyes were flicking around everywhere and I felt my skin crawling sometimes. Felt like running around in circles and felt twitchy. I made bf put on some music  which seemed to help me concentrate better. I couldn't get my words out fast enough, stuttering and stumbling over the words and phrasing my sentences so badly that he couldn't really understand what I was trying to say. It wasn't fun.

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