Sep 26, 2011
Well as I said in previous journal entries - I am single but have had a boyfriend for 8 years. Well had would be the operative word here. Apparrently he is not cut out to be dealing with someone who has health issues. Had a moment last night where my leg gave out and I fell he got disgusted and mad and by the end of the evening was not speaking to me. When pushed to find out why he was mad - all he said is get it fixed. Well unfortunately since I do not know what "it" is yet kind of tough. So I guess I am really in this alone now with the exception of a few friends and you all here. Not sure how I feel about it all yet - Sad - but in a way relieved - cause it has been so hard being on guard afraid I would have a screw up and fall or something in front of him or his family - Guess now I can just be myself. Maybe this is better but it sure is gonna be lonely.
Oh well wasted 20 years married to a man who left me for someone else - whats another 8 - yes this is a pity party!