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Sep 26, 2011 - 4 comments

Well as I said in previous journal entries - I am single but have had a boyfriend for 8 years. Well had would be the operative word here.  Apparrently he is not cut out to be dealing with someone who has health issues.  Had a moment last night where my leg gave out and I fell he got disgusted and mad and by the end of the evening was not speaking to me.  When pushed to find out why he was mad - all he said is get it fixed.  Well unfortunately since I do not know what "it" is yet kind of tough. So  I guess I am really in this alone now with the exception of a few friends and you all here.  Not sure how I feel about it all yet - Sad - but in a way relieved - cause it has been so hard being on guard afraid I would have a screw up and fall or something in front of him or his family -  Guess now I can just be myself.  Maybe this is better but it sure is gonna be lonely.  

Oh well wasted 20 years married to a man who left me for someone else - whats another 8 - yes this is a pity party!


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by beachcomber13, Sep 26, 2011
I'm so sorry. Even if it's a relief in some ways, that stinks.

Fix it? Of course you would love to! Ugh, some people just don't get it.

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by Sumanadevii, Sep 26, 2011
I know you loved him, Sweetie but he isn't a man.  He is but a yellow belied coward.

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by Lulu54, Sep 26, 2011
Wow, everytime I think I've heard of human behavior that can't be worse, along comes another example.  Fix it?  I'm sure you would like to as would all of us.  If only it was as simple as this simpleton seems to think.

It may have taken 8 years to show his true self to you - but at least you now know the truth of his character.  This disease, if that is what you have, takes enough energy to live with let alone letting someone else suck the life out of you.  

I'm sorry this is happening to you and we are definitely here to listen to your rants and all the pity parties you want to host.  

hugs, Lu

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by Jacksmom516, Sep 27, 2011
Thank you all so much - he has no idea of how hard it is to get thru every minute of every day - having to plan your activities so that you don't get to tired - allowing for time to rest - The Drs are still trying to figure out just what "this" is but it is definately something and just when I need support this is what I get - well what can you do.  Just try and get thru the next day and the one after that -

You all help so much - Don't know what I would do without you all!

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