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The start of my story

Oct 02, 2011 - 1 comments

My adventure with Norco started about 4 years ago...

We were doing some heavy lifting at work and one of my friends handed me a yellow pill that gave me super human strength and endurance. I told him how stoked I was and he gave me a handful - this was my start...

The first year I would buy 20-30 a month and take 1 or 2 when I needed to take the edge off or when I was partying. I was always limited by my supply...

Three years ago I sought out my friend's supplier and started buying between 100-180 a month and I was off to the races. In the last two years I have learned about dependance and withdrawal firsthand. My relationships and life have suffered and it was all my secret. It's remarkable the things that I have done while out of my head and survived. You should try surfing 10' Cloudbreak on 6 Norcos...

About a year ago I realized that I was a prisoner to these farking pills - I was up to 8 pills a day and I couldn't travel without a pile of pills. I knew it was time... but it would take a while.

A couple of months ago I called my dealer (even calling him a dealer seems really weird) and told him I was over it - I tapered (which gave me mild to moderate W/Ds for about 30 days) and jumped last Friday August 23rd. I had moderate W/Ds for 3 days - then caught a bug (which really seemed to restart the W/Ds) and here I am at the end of day 9 feeling fine.

What the he** happened to me? Three years in a fog and isolated from everyone with my secret?!? Not a pattern I want to repeat anytime soon...

I did not use today and I don't think I'll use tomorrow...

In serving others we become free...          Later - Jay

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by LBSU, Oct 05, 2011
So I'm coming up on 2 weeks now and it strikes me that the single most important thing that I have done is to completely break my supply line - all bridges burnt behind me and taking it one day at a time. I must confess that I have been reading and drawing strength from this site for over a year now. I am very happy to be on this journey and living in the now - no matter what life throws at me...


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