Oct 17, 2011
I can't tell you ladies how scared I am right now. All day long I've felt like my AF was going to show up at any moment. I feel nothing but the familiar symptoms of AF rearing its ugly head. What will I do if this is negative again? I'm not sure I am strong enough this time not to totally lose it. I mean every time I stop to think I've done this 8 times (and let's not mention the 4 IUI's before this) I think I must be absolutely nuts. I'm not even sure if I know anyone else on this website that has gone that has done this many cycles. You know what they say about doing the same thing over and over..........
I'm not saying that I'm not trying to stay positive but I can't help the what if's popping in my head every now and again.
Just because its a donor egg doesn't mean anything I have to remind myself. I can't just count on that. I sometimes what to do an HPT but I'm too scared to. I'm scared of everything right now. I don't know if I can take it anymore.