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Oct 17, 2011 - 15 comments

I can't tell you ladies how scared I am right now.  All day long I've felt like my AF was going to show up at any moment.  I feel nothing but the familiar symptoms of AF rearing its ugly head.  What will I do if this is  negative again?  I'm not sure I am strong enough this time not to totally lose it.  I mean every time I stop to think I've done this 8 times (and let's not mention the 4 IUI's before this) I think I must be absolutely nuts.  I'm not even sure if I know anyone else on this website that has gone that has done this many cycles.  You know what they say about doing the same thing over and over..........

I'm not saying that I'm not trying to stay positive but I can't help the what if's popping in my head every now and again.  

Just because its a donor egg doesn't mean anything I have to remind myself.  I can't just count on that.  I sometimes what to do an HPT but I'm too scared to.  I'm scared of everything right now.  I don't know if I can take it anymore.  

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by TAGLAS, Oct 17, 2011
BE STRONG!!! I'm keeping you in my prayers. I don't blame you for not wanting to experience that horrible feeling. Try to maintain a positive outlook.

Praying for you and sending SSBD your way :)

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by hopeitworks, Oct 17, 2011
I felt like AF was coming for the longest time! Even up til prob 12 weeks. SO that doesnt mean you are out!!
Hang in there tomorrow is the day. Dont loose your positive outlook! This is it!!!
Im praying for you


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by mhv, Oct 17, 2011
Oh honey.  I know how scared you are!!!!  I cried all the way to the lab on my last beta.  I just didn't want to know the answer. You know I am praying for you with all of my heart!  You know how badly I want this to be positive for you!!!  And you are right, just because you used a donor egg doesn't mean anything... but, my friend, it give you a huge advantage!  When you get that postitive tomorrow, I am going to be doing the biggest baby dance ever for you!!!!  You will probably be able to hear me scream and yell all the way to your house!!!  And, if God forbid, this transfer is negative (which I doubt very very much), I will be here to help pick you up, dust you off, and get you right back into the game.   You are a strong women!  I admire you strengh and your determination.  I am here for you my dear friend... Good or Bad.  We are ALL here for you!!!!! :)

I am sending you a gigantic huge hug!!!!!

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by hope2b888, Oct 17, 2011
have are in my prayers.......ssbd

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by Hopefulcb, Oct 17, 2011
One more day!!! Wow!! I'm so excited for you!!!! Keep the faith!!!! I also thought it didn't work and got this overwhelming sense that it didn't work before I got a BFP!! I remember DH had to look at the pee stick because I couldn't do it. When he said there was a very very faint line I was in complete shock!!! So I am hoping you get the surprise if your lifetime tomorrow!!!!!!!! I'll be checking on your updates all day!!!!!!!

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by Moma_Cher, Oct 17, 2011
My heart is with you! I am sure I'd be feeling just as you the way, you did something different this time! DE more than doubles your odds of success! Just remember, the only time you don't fail is the last time you try anything-- and it works.

I pray this is your last try ;0)

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by Pecas282, Oct 17, 2011
It is so scary! I didn't have 8 IVFs, but I had three miscarriages and many months of BFNs. Even with the donor egg I prepared myself for the worst and wired enough money for 6 tries. It took one, but I told myself I'd get it by the third in order to prepare.

PS: I get the same exact symptoms before a BFP that I do with a BFN. For months I tallied and tallied my two week waits, and there was no difference!  I am sending good vibes your way!!!!!


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by melimeli, Oct 17, 2011
prayers prayers prayers

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by journey2motherhood, Oct 17, 2011
Thank you all so much.  I'm trying to stay positive.  Cher - you are right I never thought of it as I did something different - DE is definitey different this time around.  I hope and pray that makes a difference.  Still, I sit here scared to death.  How will I ever make it through tomorrow?  I have to go at 7 am for the test, drive to work and sit there to 2pm!  I'm not sure if I want to listen to my messages during work, or suffer to I get home!

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by sisi2399, Oct 17, 2011
Test..... Poas... It will prepare you for tomorrow... I'm praying for you girl... Tomorrow will be great for you!!!

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by Debra109, Oct 17, 2011
I feel your pain. Take deep cleansing breathes. Tell yourself that this is something you have to do and it's inevitable. Good or bad you're going to pass through this. Please remember that you are NOT alone. In fact there are a few of us in your shoes  but we have to POAS (me) this week. Me tomorrow.  I'll pray it's great!!! news for you. Lots of love and blessings, Hun. Debra

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by globetrot, Oct 17, 2011
Hang in there Sweetie- please keep the faith.  I know it is hard.  Hugs to you.

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by Kricket212, Oct 17, 2011
Sending you lots of Baby dust.........

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by journey2motherhood, Oct 18, 2011

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by Des_a_rae, Oct 18, 2011
Wooohooo What WONDERFUL news!!  A super congratulations to you.  So happy for you and your hubby!! :D  

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