Oct 18, 2011
Today started out OK, but later in the afternoon I just started to feel like my heart was going to stop. It had been going a bit fast earlier, like 105 bpm when I was out shopping. That got me sort of worried, and suddenly I was just feeling like I was about to die. I know this is irrational, that it can't be that easy to die and that hearts rarely stop for no reason, and I am so angry at myself for feeling this. I should be calm and happy and healthy, not paranoid! Why do I feel like this? I am just waiting for my heart to either speed up and short-circuit from beating too fast, or just to seize up and stop. I need to have faith in my health, but it is so hard!!