My last day on meds

well its  Thurs evening @ 9:30 pm.  My afternoon and evening was good then turned into a mess.  I got real nervous  and depressed when I knew my last dose of Effexor XR and Wellbutrin XL  was starting to wear off.  I always get more agitated in the evenings anyways.  Have been worried about not hearing from my x-bf in 3 weeks.  He emailed me today.  I got real emotional when I was reading it.  crying alot. Its just hard going through all of this alone , me and Scott, Andy, Abi.

My kids have grown up with me being on medication for anxiety, depression, bipolar, mood disorder.
Now they are as uncertain as I am about what the days are going to bring  "mommy" off meds.

I tried to have a good day with my kids that I very seldom do, cause I wont go any where.
We went  and walked around the mall, then to eat supper at IHOP  and stopped by Hobby Lobby to just
look around.    By time we got home I was so stressed and emotional, with alot of anxiety.  I didn't know
what to do.  " why me, why do I have to be sick?"   severe anxiety about the days to come and the withdrawals.
I am scared !   please pray for me/