Nov 19, 2011
It is hard to say this but i have to deal with it I keep trying to wake up for this nightmare. Nov 9th My dear Mom Passed away . It was very quick and still hard to believe. she had stage 4 cancer thought her whole body she never had pain and we had no idea, which iam glad we did not know. there was nothing we could have done if we knew about it it would of just made it hard knowing it was happening. she was in the hospital for fluid in her lungs they kept telling us in was just an infection so the dr was so puzzeled as to why her whit blood count kept going up. so he did a cat scan and found it a hour later she was gone. She never knew and iam glad. I just hope she is with her family and in Peace. Iam so lost. I was caring for her every day as she was bed bound. I have wake up hearing her clling my name but she is not here.
It was not asy care for her but i would never trade that year in for anything I got to spend so much time with her. she told me stories of her live i would have never known.Iam just so thankful I was able to have her with me at home and not in the gates to heaven home.
I miss you Mommy and love you so much. The pain is so much different then all of my other losses.