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Nov 23, 2011 - 8 comments

So once again my body has let me down. I've started spotting as my mood says after being 2 days late starting.

I was really getting my hopes up when AF was late, but she was just messing with me....The Witch!

I wasn't even the only one who thought I conceived. Someone on MedHelp even thought I was when looking at my temps. So I guess temps really only tell you so much....

I'm really beginning to lose all hope. Why is this so frustrating and difficult? I didn't realize it would be so difficult to have a child after our first one happened so easy and fast.

Oh well, enough of my pity party. Time to move onto another cycle I guess....*sigh*

My Sticky Lil Bean
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by thebrat333, Nov 23, 2011
sorry to here it didn't happen again :(    

give that cat a cuddle for luck !    stroking it will help a little bit :)

xx  

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by Marlene76, Nov 23, 2011
A year ago my husband and I decided to try for our second child. We conceived our son (first child) in about 4-5 months and had no problems so I never dreamed we would have any difficulties. Three miscarriages and an ectopic later I am now pregnant with our second child. I saw the heartbeat today so things are looking good. I know it's hard but try not to give up hope!

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by Shannon79, Nov 24, 2011
LOL Brat...Naughty!

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by Shannon79, Nov 24, 2011
It's very hard not to give up hope. I'm trying really hard, but when your body keeps letting you down, it gets difficult to believe.

I know if it's meant to be, it will be. But honestly, I hate that saying. Everyone says it, it's over-used. And it's just people's way of sugar coating the situation because they don't know what else to say.

So I guess it's time to move on to the next cycle with my chin held high. (or at least as far as it will go, because I'm feeling pretty low right now)

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by Risa615, Nov 24, 2011
Sorry this is not the cycle. I know exactly how you feel and there is nothing that helps plus being on your period makes emotions higher. I did progesterone this cycle otherwise af would be here, my temp is down so I know this cycle is a bust.  I decided to order Fertilaid so I can try it again. Planning for the new cycle sometimes helps a little.  Sending you hugs.

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by Shannon79, Nov 24, 2011
Thanks risa. I'm glad I've got you MedHelp ladies. You girls understand.

I think DF understands, or he tries too anyway, and I thank him for that. But I'm not sure if he understands 100%. Or maybe he does, and I'm not giving him enough credit.

I know he was disappointed when I did the HPT and it came out negative. The look on his face said it all. So it's hard for him too. I know he wants to have 1 more before it's too late for him. He is 14.5 years older then me. (He just turned 47, so his time is running short unfortunately).

So maybe we'll have a nice surprise for christmas. One can always hope

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by Risa615, Nov 24, 2011
Shannon men really have no clock, they are lucky that way! My uncle was 56 when my aunt got prego with my cousin at 39. My aunt was really surprised and back 34 years ago, 39 was old. Her other two she had at 19 & 23 so she thought she was done Lol  I would like a Christmas surprise too! I just wish there was a way to not think about it, but it is really impossible.

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by Shannon79, Nov 25, 2011
lol. Whoa!

That at least gives me some hope that it can still happen.

You're telling me. It seems like it's ALL I think about. Like 24/7.

I just wish there was a switch I could flip and stop thinking about it

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