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Paranoia!

Nov 26, 2011 - 0 comments

Oh, I'm feeling so scared today. I have been off colour all week, shaky and weak and filled with tension. I have been worrying about all sorts of health issues, most notably electrolyte imbalance due to a post I read on this site; hearing how dangerous it can be, especially for people with a predisposition for heart problems, has totally freaked me out. I shudder to think about what's going on inside my body! And then my heart rate has been really low; I woke up last night and checked it and it was 51. How low can it go? Plus it's influenza season and I'm thinking about how dangerous it would be for me to get the flu; I know that vomiting can seriously mess up electrolytes and heart rhythm in even the healthiest of people. I was supposed to get an immunization shot today but chickened out because ... I was worrying about the potential side effects of the vaccine! God, I am paranoid. I feel like I am completely doomed, facing horrible health problems from every direction. How I miss the days when I was well.

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