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Over a year clean

Dec 23, 2011 - 1 comments

I am so excited that I no longer have to rely on pills anymore. I think back to all the time wasted worrying and thinking about those pills. It makes me mad that I did that, it isn't like me to do that. I love being free, not waking up in the middle of the night worried because I am almost out of pills. It is hard reliving those feelings and thoughts. I still think about it and sometimes I have "cravings" for them but I don't do anything about it. It usually passes within a few minutes. I had kidney stones about two months ago and took percocets, those made me sick so I threw those out. Doctor gave me vicodin and I took two and watered down the rest. It was too tempting to take those and I did not want to go through any withdrawls anymore. It did help with the pain and I was happy that I was able to control it. Its still a struggle deciding if I should take them for surgeries but I figure as long as I use them as prescribed and once I no longer need them for the pain, I need to get rid of them. Overall, I am very happy where I am at today!

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by jdman2u, Dec 23, 2011
Congratulations!!! You are an inspiration for others and always remember the journey is taken one step at a time.  

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