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Figures!! 17 dpo & BIG FAT NEGATIVE! :(

Feb 01, 2012 - 19 comments

Okay, yes I'm  upset and I swore to myself and to you all today that I'll Never EVER test again with a freakin hpt.  I HATE those things!!
Nothing like getting your hopes up and thinking "maybe, just maybe" to see that one single lonely line on a hpt.  I wished I had a pink sharpie just to make myself feel better, I'd draw the second line in there. lol.  I've been super emotional  here lately and I know it's because I knew deep down I wasn't pg, just didn't want to confirm it.  I'm okay with it now.  
Anyways, Having said all you think that with my 2nd set of opk's that I didn't O on the first ones and possibly did the 2nd time around?  I had the ewcm and the usual cramps.  If so I first seen the ewcm on cd23 and my super positive opk was on the 25, so Im thinking I should expect AF from now till cd 38 ugh!!  She should be here by Feb, 4th and if not I'm calling the dr.  

I also want to say thank you ladies soooo much!!  I really appreciate your friendship, your encouragement and for being there for me through all of this. It means more to me than you all will ever know.  There's no way I could've went to my mom with this, she'd get her hopes up and I couldn't handle seeing her upset when I did the test and it was negative. I think that upsets me more than myself seeing the negative.  I can't tell my sister because she's to young and doesn't understand this all.  So I actually have no one to go to here that would even understand and I'm thankful to have you all! :)  

ANd one more thing, if you all don't mind.  My sister has posted in the pregnancy 18-34 forum, she's "Flossy_Mae" and she also posted under the Am I pregnant forum.  I would answer her question BUT I don't want her seeing all my problems here on medhelp.  If you have time could you please help with her question?  

Thanks again ladies!!

This IS never ending. :(
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by retta483, Feb 01, 2012
Im so sorry hun  :(  I Wish you would of got your wish for a child that you deserve . you could of geared up to o on the first and actually oed on the secound set it is posible . I kinda hate opk's they make u get your hopes all up and you make sure to bd on those days and get excited just to be slapped in the face with af :( But hang in there hun I have lived with infertility my whole life and  I have had 7 pregnancys . I dont say that to offend you  but to give you hope my friend sarah also has pcos and she just had her 6th with a natural cycle . so It does happen It just takes longer for some woman . Its ok to grieve but try to get out of the funk of a bad cycle and get energized for the next one  Because you never know that could be the one ! xoxo much love im sorry again for the bfn .

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by heather727, Feb 01, 2012
That *****!!  I'm still going to hold to 'you're not out until the fat lady sings' montra, but a BFN ***** no matter what.

Yes, it's possible you O'd with the second set of possitive OPKs.  So I agree, if AF doesn't show by the 4th, call the dr.

My fingers are still crossed for you though!  You never know!!! :)

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by Des_a_rae, Feb 01, 2012
Thanks Retta!  It does give me hope.  I'm constantly hoping and praying that my day is soon.  I'd never call anyone greedy, it's their own choice as to how many children they want but I would just LOVE to have one :(.  If I did have 2 or 4 or whatever that'd be wonderful, but please bless me with at least one. You're right about opk's, the only thing is though, when I was temping and using opk's it all temp would prove that I O'd and after having so many that matched I just stopped temping assuming it'd be the same every month.  Now I want to kick myself in the rear because of all months, I wished I would've temp'd this one.  

Thanks so much Heather!  Yeah, I hope she don't show but then again I wished if she was going to, she'd hurry up about it.  I HATE waiting.

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by heather727, Feb 01, 2012
Well, I hope you have an answer one way or the other soon.

I was temping and using OPKs for a couple cylces.  Mine always matched too.  So I dropped the OPKs.  I figured it was cheaper to just temp every day.  You don't get as much of a warning ahead of time if you aren't pretty regular, but at least you KNOW when you O'd.

Good luck either way!!

(and seriously?  S U C K S is considered a swear on MH??  That's just flipping hilarious!)

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by Carly1306, Feb 01, 2012
awww I'm sorry. I really, really had my hopes up with this one. All the signs were right there. You might be like me though, the one month you do get pregnant will be the months you won't get ANY signs at all - nothing. I had nothing either way, no pregnancy or AF signs. But you know, my fingers are still crossed for you and it's definitely not over till she shows her face. If she does - then enjoy the BDing! Lots and lots of baby dust is coming you way.

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by Des_a_rae, Feb 01, 2012
Lol yeah it's crazy how they blank that out.  So silly actually.  And thanks, I do too.

Thanks kitkat. I didn't think I was either way because that's how I've felt, nothing.  No nausea no nothing.  I thought maybe it was to early but oh well.  I've only been really tired and that was probably due to worrying about it all the time.  Oh well, hopefully soon enough I'll get my very own. :)  Thanks again!!

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by Sherri90049, Feb 01, 2012
I'm sorry about the BFN, sweetie! They always s u c k! But like the other ladies mentioned, until AF shows, there is still hope. I have heard of women who were pregnant but didn't get a BFP until many weeks into their pregnancies. Stay away AF! xx

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by Vantom, Feb 01, 2012
Im sorry u got a bfn sis, that ***** yo!! i was really praying and rooting for u this cycle :( i know how u feel when it comes to seeing those bfn's its so hard to deal with when all u want is 2 pink lines to show up. I wish u all the best of luck next cycle and im sending you truck loads of baby dust!! keep ur faith up sis you'll get that bfp soon :o) we all will who are still ttc!!

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by Moma_Cher, Feb 01, 2012
I HATE WHEN THIS HAPPENS!! Sorry, not yelling at you lol.

I was just so hopeful :((

Well, it looks like you may have ovulated later than you originally thought. Bummers.

So you could be 8-9dpo? That would explain bfn. Praying you get that bfp in spite of it all! You so deserve this honey!

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by Des_a_rae, Feb 01, 2012
Thanks so much Hun!  Yeah it ***** big time. I kept waiting out of fear and of course it was confirmed.  Ahh, on to the next one and praying for us all :).

Thanks Cher, I hate it too.  Yeap probably only 8-9 dpo.  I've never had an OPK and not ovulated but I guess there's a first time for everything.  I hope it doesn't become a monthly thing.  I wonder why that happens?  I wasn't stressed or sick or anything like that.  Weird to say the least.   Thank you so much for everything!!   Praying for your BFP as well and hoping it's soon for all of us! :)

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by agrell, Feb 01, 2012
:(...still holding out hope for you a BFP in 2012 love :))

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by pb95, Feb 01, 2012
Sorry to hear it.  I would say that yeah, maybe that was a late ovulation, so maybe it isn't over yet!
Best of luck.

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by butterflybabies, Feb 01, 2012
Im sorry and that stinks and is never easy to see the neg :(      Do you use the dye opks?? I used to use those but could never quiet tell when it was a true positive. I then switched to the digital opks. yes they are a bit more expensive but it was so much easier . When you get a positive opk the digi displayed a smiley face..No guessing needed. Also this might be personal and im sure you probably already know but do you lay in bed for at least 20 min after bdng with your legs up in the air and a pillow under your hips?? Im trying to think of other tips. Anyway take the time to be moody and be disappointed thats ok. But dont let it last to long so you dont carry that negative energy into your next cycle. Praying for you always and fingers crossed you get your bfp soon! Big hugs to you sweety!!

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by Des_a_rae, Feb 02, 2012
Thanks so much ladies.  I'm just going to wait until this weekend.  If my 2nd opk's were my "real" one since I probably didn't ovulate with my first set around cd17, I should be around 9 dpo today and if Af isn't here by this weekend I'll test once more and if negative I'll probably get in with the dr.'s office.  This really ***** but I can't do anything about it unfortuantely.  I'm okay with it being negative, I was very emotional about 3 days ago, my poor doggie, I was on the computer reading something and just busted out in tears, he was in his bed being a good boy like always and he started whining, he came over and sat his head on my lap, it was sooo sweet!  Don't let anyone ever tell you that dogs dont' know when somethings wrong.  I love my Ogre!! :)  Anyways, so that's my plan for now.

Butterflybabies- yeah I've always used the dye ones, I've used them for over a year now and I've always had super positive lines. I guess I'm luck they work for me because when I was using those and temping it all matched up.   As far as bedding I've always laid there about 15 to 20 min but it looks like I am going to have to start standing on my head Lol!  Well you know what I mean, legs up, pillow under and all that good stuff.  

Thank you all so much again. :)  I really appreciate it.

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by Keep_alive_kicking, Feb 02, 2012
So sorry for your dissappointment dear, maybe it is not over yet... Our pets can be so sweet and they can definitely sense it when we feel sad. I also love my doggy dearly and I could never imagine my life without him :)
Whatever the outcome this month, keep positive and keep hopeful, 2012 is still at the beginning and your time to get a bfp will come soon xxx

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by ConnieG, Feb 02, 2012
Didn't read all the above posts, but I really think the second O is what you need to go by too.  You probably O'd twice and so your body is confused. It happens some times. HOPEFULLY you will get your actual BFP in 2 days!!!!!

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by ConnieG, Feb 02, 2012
(I couldn't find your sister's posts.....)

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by Des_a_rae, Feb 02, 2012
Keep- thank you so much!  You're right and I completely agree, I would go nuts if I lost my dogs :(.  I hope all of us that are trying get our BFP's soon!!

Thanks connie, I think it's confused to lol.  I just hate that this is becoming more often than not. :(   And that's okay about my sisters post, thanks for looking anyways.  She's better now! :)

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by Michelledj, Feb 03, 2012
:( xx

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