Oct 19, 2008
i leave for detox on tuesday for 14 days, then i'll go to a 28 day treatment facility, after that i get transported to a year long rehab where after six months i can go get a part-time job. part of me is off the chart excited to do this, the other little part is terrified! i've been going to NA meetings just to talk to a real life face who know what you're feeling and it's kept me sane.
anyway, bags are packed, responsibilities are taken care of, off i go. talk to you in november of 2009. -jessejames32 (today is my birthday, no more 31)
--thank you all who've kept me alive this last year, i hope i'm able to keep in touch while i'm away, but if not, take care of yourselves and i'll write the second i'm back (Nov. 2009) luv you all.. -jessejames32
*** got a phone call at 4 o''clock this morning telling me the bed that was expected to be open for me today, (21st), wont be because the particular patient re-entered the detox program.. does that makes sense, if you've been detoxing for 14 days, why exactly would the facility allow you to detox again, essentially from nothing, knowing i'm chewing my fingernails down to the wrist? i'd think if this dude wanted to "re-enter", then he should have been put back on the bottom of the list. so now i just sit and wait for the phone call, while begging my doctor for more methadone because the original plan changed. (i'm sure she'll be alright about it, but it's getting a hold of her that'll be the problem).. anyway, you're all stuck with me for a little longer. when i know, i'll write a quickie good-bye..