Had an anxiety filled night which I expected. I thought of Dad during the night and I really felt lost and confused. I cant believe he is gone. This just has to be at the core of my anxiety right now.
After his death, I didnt think or feel much of his loss. I think I was just ignoring it and living in denial. Well, I can feel it now whenever I think of him and it is very upsetting to say the least. That is why this episode of anxiety is so tough.
Anxiety high today. Calmed down a little bit later on in the day.