between all the damn pain and then feeling pissy on top of that i just want to give up.I feel so alone all the time anymore . I really want to just die .
Just got to say why is it that my wife is a CNA and she can care for all them people at her work but dont give a **** about me.
She has claimed that im faking it,lazy,and that im a piece of ****. I really wish that was the fact id go get a job and take care of my family the way i should .**** i havent had Sex for almost a year now. Sometimes i feel that if i could have sex with someone it would ease my depression. I feel so damn mad at myself for everything that has happened these past 9 years.