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Day 8....

Apr 17, 2012 - 0 comments
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day 8

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Love

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stress

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sleep

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tramadol

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withdrawal

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aftercare

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positivity



Woke up early..but still got a good 7 hours sleep!  I have a hate/love relationship with sleep now.  I hate that another day has ended because it's been so great, BUT I love the thought of another day to come!  Even waking up earlier than I have in a long while I'm good.....nice strong coffee, a good morning chillin with my honey before he was off to work and now I'm blaring music on our surround sound and singing along.  My dogs think I"m insane but they hide their ridicule by pretending to sleep and ignoring me.  I think they're just jealous that I have the thumbs and I get to choose the music.  But I digress......Usually this time of morning I have to shake the "heavy" feeling...ya know?....the kinda blues-y feel?  Today...it wasn't really there!  I do know the amino acids in the protein shake (that I get at Walmart of all places!!) and the mid-day vitamin B complex is a MUST!  I skipped my B's yesterday and could tell a difference.  Today I will remember!!  Already the thought of the first days of w/d makes me sick when I even THINK of pills....so not a craving at all.  I"m sure things will change and I'm all prepared for them.  Sticky notes here and there.....little messages on my laptop...even my phone!  As I've said before, I'm realizing FINALLY how important thinking ahead about after care and planning ahead of time for triggers is SO important!  I've even made playlists online....positive, upbeat, get-yer-*** moving kinda songs....all ready for when needed! :o)  Essential oils for aromatherapy stress relief and mental stimulation.  Getting out today in my convertible ....even though it's pouring cats and dogs.  I have a charity event this Friday so lots to do!  Advice today....again....KEEP BUSY!  You keep your mind and body busy and those stupid little thoughts don't have room to flutter in and if they do they go as quickly as they come.  Also....DO NOT let other's problems or stresses become yours!!!  Going through some of that today...BUT even though I love these people, their probs aren't mine.  I can be there for them and love them but I don't need to carry their baggage.  I'm sure I'll pop in later.....got some boogy-ing  to do while I sweep and clean my house!  Much peace and love to all! Keep up the great work!!  You deserve to smile, FEEL, and reveal your TRUE YOU to the world.....and the world will be better for it!

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