Oct 26, 2008
I have found that although it's so much better to be off the Lortab, it takes a long time for life to begin to be normal again. I'm not being negative, but it seems to be a fact that it's a long road. It's not easy, but I do believe it will be worth it. I have changed profoundly over the last 53 days. My mind is more open and clear. I'm starting to see things that I had allowed to continue in my relationships and I've realized things about myself - some nice, some ugly. But, I've also come to love myself again!!! I am worthy of love and I am worth it!!! This is a battle we all have. Sometimes, many of us, continue to take the drugs, alcohol, or whatever it is so that we can hide the truth that we feel worthless and unworthy of love. But, one thing we learn is that we are WORTHY of love!!! Nobody can take that away from us. We are able to overcome our weaknesses and go forward and hope and pray that those we've hurt will forgive us, but realize that we are NOT always at fault. I don't know if you can make sense of my ramblings, but I've realized something very important today - I MATTER!!! And, so do ALL OF YOU!!!!
Lots of love to you all - especially to those friends who have made a HUGE difference in my life - not just those who have told me what I wanted to hear/but those who have told me some truths!!! THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!
Have a wonderful day!!! My prayers are with you all. I know I am nothing without God and my Savior's love!!!!