Oct 28, 2008
Well, K (baby's Father) and I have come leaps and bounds in the past couple months..
We are seeing a therapist and trying to work on our communication skills before our son, Jaxson arrives in January. We had sort of "re-sparked" and got back together, then 2 weeks later he says he is not at the same place I am and doesn't love me.. Great...
I am trying to be understanding that he is just totally different than I am, but I do get p i s s e d .. I mean we are having a son and I thought we were working on "us." He thought we working on being friends (with benefits?!) WTF? Talk about constant miscommunication.. It's like we are in totally different relationships and I am typically feeling disappointed or just generally bad.. UGGH
Our current situation is this:
He is willing to help while I am on maternity leave ( I get NOTHING). We live on an expensive island and after much adieu, have decided it would be best for the baby, him, and I to all be together once Jaxson arrives. He is moving into my house on Dec.1. It financially is the best the plan as well.. It's actually the ONLY Plan that makes sense. I think it will be awkward since we have seemingly discontinued our physical relationship, but if I put my emotions on the side burner for a moment, I realize that is going to be worth it to have the help and bonding time for him and his son and give me a rest. If he doesn't move in, I think it would be very difficult and honestly, I want him around for those important bonding times.. We see a therapist every other Thursday and we have an appointment this week.. We shall see how it goes...