Oct 26, 2007
Today I got to play with my grandbaby a little bit. She's so beautiful. She always makes me smile. I'm getting my thyroid ultrasound done tomorrow at 11am. They said it's an easy test and that it won't hurt.....that will be a nice change, but then I'm not sure if they even realize what hurt is to me. They can lay on a flat hard table on their back and think ......hmmm........this is a little cold. I do that and I think.............somebody shoot me........I get the chills all over from the cold table and my back is in severe pain from laying on a hard surface and then I get severe abdominal pain from laying flat. I only hope it's done on one of those padded beds, that sit semi-upright, in a warm room with the warm gel, not that cold stuff they use to always use.
Yes, I know ..........what a thing to waste so much time thinking about. But when you experience chronic pain that can be triggered by many simple things.........which will turn that pain into a nightmare.......you begin to think a lot about every situation you put yourself into beforehand.
Today for instance.........I had a couple friends over that I haven't seen for a while. They both know about my condition and my pain and yet both while they were here..........patted my back hard and the huggy one hugged me a couple of times too hard. I usually tell everyone, but the one friend I haven't seen in a long time and I didn't want to run her off with my demands of not being touched and the other friend........the huggy one who comes over once every week or so, has already been asked nicely not to do it a couple of times and I know people forget and they just do what comes natural, but this hurts me and I want to hit people when they touch me, so they know what their touch feels like to me! Don't get me wrong, I love my friends and I won't hit them, but how do you approach a friend and politely tell them...........your touch is too much!