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Misty's "Hemangiosarcoma" (?)

May 25, 2012 - 48 comments

Misty has been in the wars. Not a broken rib as we thought....but a tumor. Needle-biopsy "inconclusive". The vet somehow thinks it could be a Hemangiosarcoma.....obviously the results do not specify a "sarcoma" at all, but they get us no further either. No treatment even if it was a cancer. Surgery would be horrendous because of its position. He suggested doing an incisional biopsy next week.  I asked him what was the point? And the point is simply so we should know one way or the other. I don't know if that reason's good enough to put her through it all again.

I have booked it for Thursday, but have a strong feeling I shall cancel it, as even if a cancer WAS diagnosed, what good would that do anyone? especially her. She's had enough of vets and operations and anesthetics......

And the vet did say that sure -if it was benign -there's a strong chance it'll either go away, or hang in there the rest of her life....

He also said it has no connection at all to the breast tumors we removed. That's all gone now!!  It's totally separate and a bad coincidence.


She is very happy now and seems well and fit. The tumor doesn't seem to bother her and she's in no pain. She HATES the vet's with a vengeance, and the poor little thing has been poked prodded, anesthetized, drugged, cut open, shaved, and sedated enough this year, and it's only May. Her little Soul wants some peace and quiet and some fun.


I have started her on immune support capsules,  DEL-IMMUNE V and The Budwig Protocol (basically Omega 3 from organic cold-pressed Flax-Seed oil made water-soluble, therefore accessible more easily to body cells by combining very thoroughly with sulphorous protein (ie -simply -Cottage Cheese!) Yes it sounds crank, and too simple to be anything worthwhile...but...this was the brainchild of Dr Budwig,  a doctor and scientist who researched the effect of lipids on Cancer cells. There have been many remissions using this. Though Science of course categorises this as "unproven" (of course!)There have been remarkable tumor shrinkages, and remissions in dogs as well as people. Not always the case, of course, but worth a shot. And if it doesn't happen to BE cancer, the diet will do her nothing but good anyway.


It tastes good! Nice on oatcakes! Misty wolfs it down.

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by margypops, May 25, 2012
awww Dear Misty I can understand how concerned you are ..She has been through a lot in a short time hasnt she.You are doing your best for her .I dont think it sounds cranky to give her food that may help her , I think animal lovers try any avenue to help our friends ..

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by opus88, May 25, 2012
poor little girl, sounds like she's been through H this year already. I don't blame you at all for considering just leaving the poor little lady be, like you say what would be the advantage of knowing??

I don't know much on homeopathy treatment with dogs....but I have some knowledge of it and cats...when I consulted my holistic cat friends I was told there is a treatment that they've seen great success with for dogs with hemangeosarcomas. Have you hear of NEOPLASENE? all I know is its a NON-invasive way to treat tumors of this type.

I will give you the Pdf to read more on it

I just wish little Misty all our love and tons of wishes for her trying days ahead....one for momma too.

http://www.buckmountainbotanicals.net/pdf/clinical_guide.pdf

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by opus88, May 25, 2012
also wanted to mention to speak with your Vet about Naltrexone a medication that is also reported to have good success with hemangiosarcoma's in dogs....and low side effects. ♥

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by ginger899, May 25, 2012
Oh thank you! I had NO idea firstly, that any Homeopathic treatments might help....and secondly that a drug such as Naltrexone might also help. I will certainly ask my vet about this (he mentioned nothing about any form of chemotherapy or medicinal treament....I guess because without the incisional biopsy we don't have a definitive diagnosis) He only mentioned any possible surgical answer, which after discussion, we both rejected.

I have heard of Neoplasene. I thought it sounded interesting. However I also heard from someone I know, who had seen some animals treated with this, that there had been some pretty horrific results. I couldn't help thinking that perhaps in those cases it was from topical Neoplasene being used by someone who really didn't know how to use it  And to be honest, from what I heard I would be DEAD scared of using it myself, even under instruction. I get the feeling it is a treatment best used by a very skilled veterinary oncologist who really knows what they're doing with Neoplasene. The person who told me about the "bad side" of this, certainly made me scared of it. Maybe there is a "good side" and I've just got scared off......

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by opus88, May 25, 2012
I really have only 'heard' of neoplasene, and don't know any of the details of its side effects and outcomes....as with anything being considered I know you will research it fully before coming to any decisions...I just wanted to pass on a few options to consider......but I agree I don't imagine its something that just any Veterinarian should be using without knowing all there is to know first. Do you have access to an oncologist where you are?.....ps I'm scared off too until I know all the facts about any treatments for us humans as well as our animals...♥

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by ginger899, May 25, 2012
I don't actually know of a veterinary oncologist in my area. But Monday I shall ask my vet if it's possible to get a referral to one. Trouble is, I'm between a rock and a hard place here, The incisional biopsy probably will give a definite diagnosis (ok I presume it would but there HAVE been cases when even after that the diagnosis isn't clear) -as the needle aspirate failed. That is scary in itself as the vet said it will cause some bruising and bleeding. His opinion was that the bruising would be short-lived, and the bleeding would stop. Now the last time Misty had surgery (March 27 she had a half-mammary strip) she got extensive bleeding afterwards which made me so sorry. I thought I might lose her that day. Even the surgeon did not expect that. And the nature of hemangiosarcomas (if it is one) is to bleed like heck anyway.

I don't know. I haven't completely made up my mind yet whether to go for the biopsy or what....all I know is she has been subjected to so much surgery and so much anesthetic already in 4 months, and she is terrified of the vet's, and knocked-for-six afterwards. I reckon there's only so many times she'll be able to bounce back and she's a tough dog.
I am torn between letting her be, and fighting with everything I can find. I am by nature a fighter and won't give up. But I see how she wants peace.

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by opus88, May 25, 2012
its a darn tough call....and from what little I read about the hemangio's is like you said a high risk for excessive bleeding especially internally..thats one of the reasons surgery isn't an alternative. therefore the biopsy needle could also be a risk.

if she has the biopsy and its negative than the risk was for nothing.
if its positive than you look at many more trips to the Vet's and much more poking,prodding,anesthesia's and other meds or chemicals...as you know we are both animal lovers and I'm not one to give up either without a fight...but we have to ask whats in Misty's best interests...and what would she want.

I've had to walk that road a few times myself, and its one darn hard lonely ole road hon....♥

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by ginger899, May 28, 2012
An update on Misty....she's not doing so bad. She's been pretty active and eating ok. Her energy just slightly "down" today, though not seriously, and that could have been something to do with the heat.
I am veering in the direction of definitely not putting her through the incisional biopsy, especially as heavy bleeding could be a side effect. Plus she seriously doesn't need any more surgery or anesthetics if she can avoid it.

Anyway I have discovered that there is a blood serum test, called a "SERUM RECAF TEST" which detects the presence of malignancy through a blood sample. It's aout 80-90% accurate (which will do)
So we'd have a pretty good idea if she had a hemangiosarcoma or not without the biopsy.

This test was developed by Bio-Curex, a Canadian co. Information about it can be found on www.oncopetdiagnostics.com

I shall get the vet to do this. I'll speak to him tomorrow. It will mean shipping from the UK, but that seems feasible. However it could be 2 weeks before results.....

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by ginger899, May 28, 2012
....And if she has a hemangosarcoma, then we are no going to poke, prod her, anesthetize her, torture her.....we are going to let her run in the fields until she doesn't feel like running any more, then we are going to get her a nice soft bed, and all the food she likes, and sweet music, and hugs and happiness, and have a good time right to the end.
And when the end arrives, she will either die in my arms, or I will call the vet out to have her put to sleep here in this room, on her own bed, with me holding her.

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by Misfits4Me, May 28, 2012
Silvie, I'm praying for you & Misty & hoping beyond all hope that the results will be negative........After reading your last post, I'm also crying with you, too.......God Bless both of you.....Thanks for the update........Karla

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by specialmom, May 28, 2012
Oh my goodness Ginger.  Your Misty is lucky to have you.  Everyone should be loved to the end like you'll do Misty.  peace to you both.  

And I'm really glad that she is doing all right right now!

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by Jade59, May 28, 2012
Yes, specialmom, Misty hit the jackpot with Ginger that is for sure!  Ginger will say she hit the jackpot with Misty.  They were made for each other.  

Ginger, I too am crying just reading your last post.  Thankful though for this new blood test so at least you will 'know'.  I will hope and pray for a negative result.  Meanwhile, I am relieved to hear Misty is happy and acting herself.

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by opus88, May 28, 2012
Ginger, I think I agree with your decision...its out of love and Misty knows that. Its alot to put any animal through and not good outcomes in the end anyway...otherwise I know you'd be gung-ho. this is in her best interests.

hey so glad you found a non-invasive test, thats great....now lets all say a prayer that it comes back negative for sure!!!!
I've ordered something from the UK from here in Canada not that long ago, I couldn't believe how fast the post was....like 4 days if I remember right.....

my best to you both♥

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by ginger899, May 29, 2012
She had a very bad morning. I took her to the vet because her gums were very pale, and she was super-lethargic and didn't want to eat. He had just finished surgery, and basically came rushing out, still wearing Scrubs. He said this did seem like an internal bleed, but in his opinion not such a bad one! But it does seem to add weight to the hemangiosarcoma theory. He said that these tumors are made of "spongy" material....small pockets filled with blood, and the blood supply within them is unstable, and in a way the tumor starts to destroy itself partially.....and this can cause bleeding occasionally. Usually fairly small amounts.
He asked about her basic quality of life (she seriously does not appear to be in any pain!) -and I said that she's been ok, eating, enjoying herself, going for her walks, barking at passers-by.....
So neither he nor I get the feeling it's the end.......but I do know how fast dogs can change from one thing to the other. I am keeping watch on her. I got a syringe full of warm honey-water with a little nettle juice in it (nettle's safe for dogs and stems hemorraging and bleeding) down her and that and a prayer helped her. She's still resting on her bed, but looked quite perky when I just took a look at her.
I don't think I dare go to sleep tonight. I'll ride it out. This thing isn't ABOUT me anyway

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by opus88, May 29, 2012
aww poor Misty.....sending you both my prayers hon♥

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by ginger899, May 29, 2012
Thanks sweetheart, that is so lovely of you. In fact thank you to everyone for your love and care. Misty would thank you all too if she could speak English!

Things are not looking good tonight. She might rally yet, but I really don't know. She's no worse but no better either. I just called the emergency all night vet (at Misty's regular clinic) She said basically what the vet this morning said, that a slow bleed will resolve itself no doubt, and Misty's symptoms although concerning, weren't what a sudden serious hemorrage would cause. She said Misty needs to stay still and rest, and that I have to be patient, so long as she stays the same and gets no worse, and the bleeding wil stop, the body will absorb the blood, and 24-48 hours will start new blood cells forming. That she probaly has mld anemia right now.
So what I have to watch for now is no worsening of symptoms through the night. We have an appointment for another assessment tomorrow morning at 9.20

She was doing so well yesterday. At this time last night we were coming back from a walk in the orchard, and she had such good energy,

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by Jade59, May 29, 2012
Ginger, there's not much I can say to help, but please know I am hanging on your every word nonetheless.  Know I am praying for you both, that's all I can do.  Lately I log on, and first thing is to check for an update on your girl.  I love all animals, but I've always been a 'cat person' and never had a dog.  I was bitten viciously in the thigh by a large dog when I was 19, so it was only the last 15yrs when I met my neighbors dog, I finally was able to be cautiously relaxed and enjoy him. Over the 4yrs of knowing you, you have literally brought Misty to life, and I've fallen in love with your sweet girl.  My heart is breaking for you, and with you.  I hope tomorrow will be a 'good' day for Misty.  And for you too, Ginger.  I know the heartache, stress and sleepless nights of taking care of a beloved sick pet (as most of us do) and my heart goes out to you.  I hope you'll be able to sleep tonight.  Hugs to you, honey...♥

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by ginger899, May 29, 2012
Thanks Jade, bless you.
After a horrible experience like you had I'm not surprised you felt like that. I'm glad I managed to bring a little bit of Misty's soul to life on these pages. She really has the most lovely beautiful little soul. And so intelligent. She is the most precious Being in my life, and apart from my own mother and father, the closest anyone has ever been to me.

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by margypops, May 29, 2012
awwww ginger , I know how you feel ,you have us all thinking about you and knowing we care for you and Misty...I will be off till 31st ....moving house but I will be thinking about you every moment .

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by ginger899, May 29, 2012
Thanks marg. Good luck with your move. I hope everything works out OK for you. Enjoy getting away from the old place!

Well I'm on here in the middle of the night, daren't sleep, have to keep a watch on Misty. She's not sleeping, she's lying there with her eyes open, and her heart is racing. I'm going now

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by margypops, May 29, 2012
aww sorry ginger, I am thinking about you and I am still here for a while till he wrenches the pc from my hands to pack it...dear girl shes in my heart .

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by April2, May 29, 2012
So sorry to hear this news, Ginger. My prayers are with you and Misty. *Hugs*

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by Misfits4Me, May 30, 2012
Ginger.....My Heart is with you & Misty tonight.......I can't even think about it all without starting to cry......I suppose I'm NO help, but want you to know your in my thoughts......I wish you both, Peace & Love from the U.S.........Karla

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by ginger899, May 30, 2012
Misty still with us! Rallying just a tiny bit but she's not out of the woods yet. But she ate some food, and peed a river! Ultrasound tomorrow.....

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by ginger899, May 30, 2012
I am writing a kind of "dog-blog" about Misty and her fight with cancer.... called "Misty's Blog....a dogfight with Cancer"
Some info, a bit amusing in places, picture gallery, and some gorgeous music thanks to Loreena Mc Kennitt.
When it's finished, I'll post a link.
Its either the story of her fight, or it's going to be a tribute to her....

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by tonyb286, May 31, 2012
Oh I was so sorry to read your journal entries. I know how much Misty means to you and how amazing she is to have got through all her earlier problems. While I also know it's hard to leave her and go and sleep ... you will be no good to her at all if you don't make certain you get some rest, so even if it's just catnaps, make sure you look after yourself. I'm really hoping there is good news today from the Ultrasound. I'm thinking about you both. Big hugs, Tony

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by ginger899, May 31, 2012
So true Tony. I lay down for a sleep with her yesterday around midday, and got into a strange shallow sleep, dreamed Misty and I were walking through nettles! She hates nettles. Anyway we were finding our way through the nettle patch when I heard someone say "fresh nettle juice added to nettle tea stems bleeding anywhere in the body". I got up, it was about 1.15, went straight into the garden and got some nettles, and made the concoction I was amazed how fresh and awake I felt even though I'd only slept for an hour.Gave her (in small amounts every 2 hours) equivalent to about 1/4 cupful during the day. Nettles cooked or as a  herbal remedy in moderation are not toxic for dogs.
She rallied, and her breathing slowed, then she started eating about 7pm. White fish and potato, tiny amounts.
This morning she was peeing for England! And her belly was much less swollen. I knew the bleeding had stopped.

I was aware exactly what the results of the ultrasound this morning would be. It was obvious....under the circumstances an internal bleed had to be caused by a rupturing or leaking hemangiosarcoma. I was quite prepared, and didn't expect any dfferent.
It is confirmed now. She has a small very round tumor (like a little one-inch ball) on the liver, she has one small one and one slightly larger one on the spleen. On the ultrasound the vet showed me the main area of fluid on them, and the miniscule "honeycomb" pattern inside them, which is indicative of a hemangiosarcoma. The tumors are very like a sponge, filled with blood.
He told me they can hang in there like that -or they can rupture, or leak, and there is no specific time-frame about this, it could happen next hour, or it could happen in months....he also said that bleeds do occur, and can very often be managed. With rest and special care, the dog will recover from the bleeds, the body will compensate. But of course, there is always a likelihood of a major bleed that overwhelms the system. It is never the tumors themselves that can be fatal. If they just behaved themselves, they could stay there OK (except if they cause blockage in the heart).....what becomes critical and sometimes fatal is if they hemorrage.
The subcutaneous ones have not grown in size, so I have reason to believe the internal ones will behave the same way.

I have decided to stop giving her the Budwig diet. Odd as it might sound, I think the tumors are best left in a kind of "stasis" Their very nature is to destroy themselves anyway, as they have a very badly formed blood vessel system in them (that's what causes the bleeds) So I don't want to do anything to disturb them. Heavy doses of Omega 3 might just disturb them too much....I don't know, just following my instinct about that.

She's slightly jaundiced right now but eating. Blood being re-absorbed causes the jaundice. It'll pass the vet said. She's relaxing, dozing, with the door open, and the birds singing, and every now and again gets room service in the form of a scrambled egg or bit of juicy fish or chicken. She's no way ready to die yet. I can sense that.

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by TwoBitsMom, May 31, 2012
Ginger, I am so sorry to hear the news about Misty. I know how much you love her, my heart goes out to you both.
Please know that you and Misty will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Hugs to you both...Connie

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by specialmom, May 31, 2012
Oh ginger.  I am so very sorry.  Your love for Misty is deep and felt by all of us here.  I'm praying for her and you.  I so hope she has much more time and that it is spent well.  Peace dear.

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by ginger899, May 31, 2012
TwoBitsMom, specialmom, also Misfits4Me, or anyone else I haven't sent a note to....I would like to thank you for your heartfelt kindness.
Misty sends you all a wag.

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by Jaybay, Jun 03, 2012
Hugs to you and Misty from Texas.  I hardly know what to say knowing that nothing I say will help one little bit.  :-(  Misty is one lucky dog to have a mom like you.

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by dominosarah, Jun 03, 2012
What an incredible pet owner you are ginger.  Your heart is full of love and compassion.  Misty is so lucky to have you~~

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by ginger899, Jun 03, 2012
Well it's hard to make her rest right now! She wants to be up and out! I am feeding her some really nice things, allowing her only short walks and MAKING that dog rest. I have to lie down next to her so she will. Good excuse to do something I haven't done most of my life....lie down for an hour in the middle of the day!
It's really hard, with a dog, to get the balance right. Keeping her confined to the house, to her bed, will make her depressed. Letting her out for short walks, very gently is keeping her happy. Giving her things to do, things to sniff, dogs to meet, sticks to pick up....Her renal diet isn't completely out of the window, but yesterday I bought her steak, cooked it up with green beans, and gave her all of it! Oh my, that dog enjoyed it! Her appetiteneeds a little kick-start in the mornings (I guess that's the jaundice, though she was a lot better this morning) I found a way to help that. I get some warm water and add just a few drops of honey, and syringe that into her. It gives her a quick "lift" and within seconds she's hunting for those crumbs under the bird table. Then when I put her breakfast down, she eats it.
I'm not just going to put her to sleep. I know some people would, and there would be nothing at all wrong with that decision. But I can't, while she is getting so much out of life. She is happy to be alive!.

I asked the vet -how long do you think she might have? Of course he can't say. I said....hours? Days? Two weeks...? His answer was that she could have months......
Thing is no one knows.
We could have literally one hour, or we could, like he says, have months.
He said that some dogs with hemangiosacoma can actually do very well between bleeds. As long as they are slow bleeds, they can be managed. But one day a big one will come. It could be today....it could be in months.
I told him my decision is to let her live out what is left of her life, to live it to the full, and when she doesn't want to get off her bed anymore, call someone out and have her put to sleep.
This is not going to be easy. There will be another bleed....sometime. I will just have to listen to her very very carefully.

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by Jaybay, Jun 03, 2012
You've got your mind in the right place Sylvie.  Misty will let you know when it's time and right now is definitely not it!  As long as she's still interested in the here and now you both have time to kick back and enjoy.  I love napping with my curs too - as if I could nap without them, right?  No sooner than I hit the couch then I'm covered up with furry bodies.  LOL!

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by ginger899, Jun 03, 2012
All you need where you live Jabes! LOL As if it's no hot enough without dog-duvets! (I'm sure)
There's an old saying -I think it might be from Alaska (?)
"It's a One-Dog-Night"....meaning it's ten degrees below freezing....and so on. So 40 below would be a "four-Dog-Night" Whever made up that reckoned that for every 10 degrees below, you need a dog in bed!
But it's nice, that as soon as I lay down and hear Misty breathing, and smell her scent, I start to fall asleep......

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by ginger899, Jun 05, 2012
My Misty died today at 7.30 am.
She wasn't totally wonderful yesterday, I thought it might be tiredness or mild anemia from her bleed last week.
Anyway I took her in the car to see her best dog-friend Jet late afternoon. She enjoyed being in the field with him, but I noticed she looked a tiny bit"absent". I gave her chicken for dinner....blew the renal diet out of the window! She ate it, then scrounged a bit of fish from my plate after I'd finished dinner. She looked OK.....
Anyway later she started getting restless, and looked hyper-alert. Her eyes and nose looked bright. I thought a little too bright. She wouldn't settle. I thought she wanted to go out so took her to pee but she was wobbly on her legs.I checked her gums and they were very pale.
Immediately I made her lay down on her bed (I knew this had to be another bleed) I kept her as still as possible. I got a cloth soaked in cold water and held it on her belly, wondering if it might encourage the bleed to stop. I also gave her the nettle tea, but it didn't seem to be helping this time.
I sat with her all night, giving her water from a syringe so she wouldn't have to get up to go to her water bowl.
Sometimes she drifted to sleep but kept jerking awake looking a bit scared, so I lay with her. She was quiet, all I could hear was her breathing. We lay and looked into each others' eyes. She didn't look scared then, but she was trying to tell me something. I have a feeling she was saying farewell to me.
Will this bleed pass? Like the last one? I kept asking myself. Then I couldn't bear it any more. I called the emergency vet. He thought it could be another slow bleed like the last one, and she might be ok. He gave me instructions to keep her still and quiet, and to check her gums regularly, and to notice if her belly became more swollen. By early morning I knew that I would have to have her put to sleep. Because she suddenly had breathing difficulties which she'd not had before. I knew this was getting suddenly much worse.
The vet arrived ....he found it hard to locate exactly where I lived  so it took him longer. We considered the possibility of a Spleen removal but he saw her notes and that she had liver lesions too, "she'll bleed out" he said, the hemangiosarcoma won't be cured, and she's lost so much blood already".....so I had to call it right then. I got him to put her to sleep. She went so beautifully and peacefully, and the whole thing took about 5 seconds.
Anyway I knew, even if she'd got over this, there'd be another one waiting for her maybe in a few days' time. And there is only so much of that kind of crisis a dog can take. And she wasn't going to take any more.

I buried her because she was always scared of fire. I knew how she loved the earth, loved to dig in it, and often had the scent of earth on her feet.
I love her so much, I am utterly and completely lost today without her. I can't eat or sleep. My house feels hollow and strange without her there.
She will go to Heaven because she belongs in Heaven she is such a beautiful soul. I will go there now too....because I knew her.

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by opus88, Jun 05, 2012
oh Ginger, this beautiful tribute to your Misty just made me cry too. You did the right thing and did all you possibly could right up to the very end.
She didn't suffer, she was right there beside you like she had been for so many wonderful years...looking into your eyes with love saying 'mommy its my time, don't be afraid, I love you'
Sounds so pathetic at this time, but I know its true, she will live on in your heart forever. Yes she does belong in heaven, as do all these loving loyal babies we loose.
My deepest condolences, I know how deep the grief is right now and the missing of her presence...this will lessen in time, but her memories will always be with you♥

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by margypops, Jun 05, 2012
Oh ginger so sad so sorry, and blubbering away here, been through it know what its like ...thoughts and prayers are with you ,dear dog shes at peace ....hugs marg

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by skepticalpeach, Jun 05, 2012
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. She is such a lucky dog to have had someone to love her so much until the very end.


Just this side of heaven is a place called the Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to the Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again.
The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head. You look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together…
Author Unknown


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by specialmom, Jun 05, 2012
I want to tell you how deeply sorry I am.  You have loved your Misty to the end and always will.  All dogs should be loved as she was and all owners should be loved as you were.  I wish you peace and comfort but know that will take time.  This is a huge loss for you and my heart goes out to you.  May you have many happy days ahead as Misty watches over you.  Peace dear.

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by Misfits4Me, Jun 05, 2012
Oh Ginger.....What an amazing blessing both you and Misty received during your lives with each other......You two were obviously meant to be together......I know your heart is broken & loneliness will be over-whelming, but she IS there as she always has been....You cannot see her (Except in your heart) now, is the only difference......You certainly did everything right and your plan did not fail her.......She's at Peace because of your enduring devotion to her.......What creature could ask for anything else?

I am in Awe at your faithfulness, concern, compassion, & unselfishness during these finally stages of Misty's life.....You handled it all so well.....Please know that I will be thinking about you and sending hugs your way.......God Bless both you & your beloved Misty......Sincerely, Karla

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by TwoBitsMom, Jun 06, 2012
Ginger, I am so very sorry to read about Misty. I know how much you love her. It is so wonderful that the two of you found each other, and are able to share so much love.  My heart goes out to you, I know how much you miss her. Please accept my heartfelt sympathy.
" God Bless Misty's Beautiful Spirit and Soul....(Yes, I believe dogs have souls) ....She is loved, She is love."
You will both be in my prayers.
Take care....Connie

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by tonyb286, Jun 07, 2012
Ginger. Mere words are never enough at times like this ... and I am at a loss to find the right ones. I cried reading your last post. Through all you have told us about Misty, I felt I had made a connection with her, in some strange way. What a fantastic dog - and what an amazing mom you have been to her. She was so very lucky to have shared her life with you, and you with her ... and all those experiences and adventures she had in her life will become happy, treasured and heartfelt memories for you, in time, though right now I am sure they are painful. You did so much for her. Please try to get some well deserved rest. I was getting very concerned, as I know only too well how 24/7 care of a poorly best friend can take it out of you. Misty is at peace now - and her wonderful spirit will never ever be forgotten amongst us on here, certainly not by me anyway. Run free Misty. Tony xxx

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by Pippadog, Jun 25, 2012
Ginger.I started reading your dog blog and just couldn't stop. I know how you are feeling,when it happens you feel as though you are the only person in the world that can hurt so desperately. You stood by Misty when she needed you the most.Its very warming to know there are others out there who had such a special bond with their dog. I lost my baby Pippa on the 9th of june 2012.She was the most happiest,loving,gentle jack russell terrier ever,she did not act or look her 14 years 7 months,she always thought she was an intelligent puppy ! She made eveyone fall in love with her the minute she met them,she always looked as though she had smiling eyes,which was good as she didn't have many teeth left but that didn't seem to bother her. She was a real fighter just like Misty.
Pippa had heart valve problems and in the end she went down hill within 24 hours with her breathing rate 100 + per minute. It all happened so quick we had to let her go.I will never forget looking into her eyes in the last moments of her life. I would have given anything to know what she was thinking my poor baby.I miss her so very much if the vet could of let me go with her i would of chosen to stay by her side forever just like she had with me.She went with me everywhere 24/7,the house is so very empty and lifeless. Such a little dog with the biggest personality and presence. Perhaps Pippa has gone to find Misty,they sound very compatable xxxxx

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by ginger899, Jun 25, 2012
Pippadog, I am so, so sorry about your beloved Pippa. 9th June, that was 4 days after Misty died. Like your Pippa, my Misty was a "forever young" kind of girl. Even the vet said she looked so young for her age, he thought she had wonderful condition and general health and strength. He was impressed. Although she had started with some mild kidney issues last October, they were addressed quickly -and she sprang right back up again, her bloodwork improving amazingly, until earlier this year all her kidney values were normal!
She survived breast (mammary) cancer, and sprang right back up again, with no recurrence and no complications!
She had no signs of aging, no stiff joints, not much white in amongst the blonde on her chin. She ran like the wind, chasing that frisbee. She ate well and slept soundly, played in the orchard, dug for moles, wanted her two walks a day in the woods and the fields. She was doing all that, age fourteen-and-a-half right till the last two weeks of her life (when she slowed down slightly)
Neither myself nor the vet expected what happened. That she had Hemangiosarcoma in the late stages. No-one could know!

I guess your Pippa was like that too? I used to have a Jack Russell called Toby, and I know what amazing character that breed has. But it's not just the "character" of a breed...it's the essence of that tremendous bond of love and trust and intimate contact and connection, the essential Soul whom you grow to love, which is more or less indescribable, and the very thing that leaves such a devastation when they have to go.
The bond is so uniquely special, I honestly don't think people can really understand. They see a nice dog....but they also see other nice dogs. But they can't see what you see, the bond that's as strong as a blood-tie and in many cases stronger)
I would have given her my own blood if it could have saved her. I would have given her 5 years of my life. I would have been ready to give every penny I owned if her life could have been restored and she could have gone down slowly and gracefully into old age, like the sun sinking through the sky, then died in her sleep a gentle old "lady"
But the other side of this coin is -she never had to know long declining health and strength....she never had to go deaf and blind...she never had to develop confusion, or not be able to get upstairs to bed anymore, or sleep away the bright days without play, or have stiff arthritic joints. I have thought of these things a lot since she died. In a way, she went the way she would have liked to have gone. Not too slowly.

Thank you for your kind thoughts. I am so sorry you are going through the same thing. Talk to me whenever you like, send me a message or a note. Tell me about Pippa. I totally do understand.Blessings and hugs.

(For anyone who would still like to read "Misty's Blog...A Dogfight with Cancer" (a tribute to Misty and her brave fight with cancer) it is on:

http://www.mistysblog69.blogspot.co.uk

There is also a link at the end to Misty's Memorial Fund on JustGiving.com where I am raising some money for Canine Hemangiosarcoma research and other research into combating diseases in companion animals. The money goes to Animal Health Trust, recommended by Misty's vet.



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by Free2agoodhome, Jul 02, 2012
THE LAST BATTLE   (oldie but goodie)  may your burden be lightened.

If it should be that I grow frail and weak,
And pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done,
For this  last battle can’t be won.

You will be sad I understand,
But don’t let grief then stay your hand,
For on this day, more than the rest,
Your love and friendship must stand the test.

We have had so many happy years,
You wouldn’t want me to suffer so.
When the time comes,
Please, let me go.

Take me to where my needs they’ll tend,
Only, stay with me until the end.
And hold me firm and speak to me,
Until my eyes no longer see.

I know in time you will agree,
It is a kindness you do to me.
Although my tail its last has waved,
From pain and suffering I have been saved.

Don’t grieve that it must be you
Who has to decide this thing to do
We’ve been so close – we two – these years,
Don’t let your heart hold any tears.


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by ginger899, Jul 02, 2012
That is beautiful. Thank you.
Those things are what I did do for my Misty.
Only my heart is so full of tears. That's the only thing I cannot do

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by opus88, Jul 02, 2012
Free2agoodhome............that is beautiful, thanks for posting..

(((hugs))) ginger...try to remember the good times♥

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