May 27, 2012
Well I have completly neglected to write anything else in my journal during this preganancy I guess that because this has emotionally been the hardest thing I have ever gone through!! Me and the baby's father have went round and round and he s decided he s just not gonna have any part in any of this hes packed up and moved out of state away from us. What his reasoning is and how he can love his older child and not this one is beyond me I know we didnt he have a relationship and he didnt have to accept me but what did MY son ever do to him?? I know i ll just never understand it all! So im preparing for single mommy hood and most of you guys have seen my pics I am having a boy and hes due June 5th so any time soon! Im trying to do my best to be happy and put a smile on my face even though im hurting from all the BS the father has said and done to me I know when I look in my son s face I will forget it all he will be worth every single thing i have gone through! But I have everything preppped and ready to go to bring my baby home diapers wipes carseat onesies bath stuff LOL its pretty crowded in my tiny room! But im ready for the end of this chapter and ready for the next one to start I have alot of catching up and starting over to do!! & Congrats to all the new Mommies out there!!