Nov 29, 2008
Well I found out on Wednesday that indeed the 8th IUI cycle has worked. We are pregnant. However, my DH and I have been having some problems. We got into an argument on Sunday and he spent the night by his mom's. He hasn't been back since. The only really time I have seen him this week is when he came with me to Thanksgiving. He said that if he didn't want to make this work he won't have gone to Thanksgiving but he keeps talking about getting divorced. One minute he's talking about us buying a new car after winter and the next breath he's talking about the baby and how we are going to have to figure out custody. He's had a rough past and has been married twice before. Last week he made the comment to me on how he's afraid to be home because this is when the other marriages went bad and if he wasn't home he wasn't going to be there to ruin ours. However, this past week he's been telling me that he isn't happy and that we've been stressed and we never do anything but work and work. I told him that we can work on things. We've been through way to much together to not. I haven't talked to him now in about a day. I've hardly spoken with him all week. He did go with me to both of my blood tests this week but that is about it. He said that if he had to make a decision about our relationship right now it would be that he wants to split up. I can't believe after all this time trying to have a baby that when we finally get pregnant this happens...I miss him and wish he'd come home and be happy about this baby and be happy and start fresh. To make matters worse I'm already having morning sickness and I haven't really eaten anything all week. I couldn't keep my turkey down on Thursday either. I think I've already lost 5 lbs and I know this isn't good for the baby.
I thought when we finally got to this moment that we'd be happy and go out and celebrate instead of staying home and crying because my husband isn't sure if we can survive all the past stress that was in our relationship. Hopefully he comes home soon and we talk this through. He's the type of guy that keeps all his feelings to himself until he explodes and then he won't talk to me until he's ready to talk. I just hope it's sooner rather than later. Each day that goes by that he doesn't come home makes me more and more worried that maybe this isn't going to work.