I have pooped out on my first college class. A few weeks ago, I just had one bad night and didn't do coursework. Then another, etc. I went through a depressive period kind of around the anniversary of my Dad's death that my counselor pointed out.
I finally contacted my teacher through email 3 weeks ago to tell her why I'd been gone, and she told me to just try to catch up from where I had left off (it's an online class). Well, I've been paralyzed ever since and haven't done anything.
I have not even been able to face looking at the darn website. Not even just look. Now there's only about 10 days left - I think. I think I need to ask for an incomplete or whatever is done in these situations. That would really relieve my anxiety about it, which would be great. But I'm bummed.
And I have a friend who's been supporting me that I've been kind of lying too lately. He knows I got behind, but he doesn't know that I got completely blocked. I'm afraid he'll think I'm a slacker, and now I've been lying for two weeks so it's worse.
I really thought I'd be over these kinds of experiences - I mean both flopping the class and lying to my friend.
I'd still like to take another class in the Spring since my long-term goal is to get my BA. I'm not scared of failing again for some reason, but I've got to take care of my current problem.