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Dec 08, 2008 - 4 comments

I sit here and cry like I've done everyday for the past few weeks.  Been to the doc, but she just put me on prozac and told me to see a psychiatrist.  Easier said than done considering I have no insurance and it costs $175 to see one. I guess that's where my holiday money will go to.  This is the third time I've been through a major depression, but this one has hit me harder than the others.  I just wish I had someone to talk to; my dad doesn't understand, he has that "just get over it" attitude; my best friends moved out of state and I don't have much family left.  Sorry, just having a self-pity party.  I'm just having such a hard time coping with this, this time around.  I feel like I have no where to turn. At least most people have a spouse or children to keep them grounded.  All I have are my cats, and while I love them to death, it's just not the same as having someone around to share life's burdens (and journeys) with. Oh well, I could go on, but I just don't have the energy. I just hope this depression goes away soon, because I can't deal with it this time.

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by HelpinUtah, Dec 08, 2008
I'm so sorry you are going through such a difficult time.  See if you have a local mental health center - sometimes they are state funded and can help when you have no insurance.  I would call around to local mental health agencies and see what is available.  I know seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist would be helpful!  Depression can be so overwhelming.  I will keep you in my prayers!  Also, some antidepressants have generics available and that lowers the cost of the meds.  I'm on Wellbutrin and it has given me energy, helps me focus and helps with the depression.  It doesn't work for everyone.  But, I do wish you well!!!!  

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by scaredmom330, Dec 08, 2008
I know what you are going through, am an anti depression meds, but it takes about 3 weeks to really start to work and that is if it is the right dose/. me telling you to be strong is like talking to myself, it is so hard when you feel this way. just know you are in my thoughts and prayers.. I know what you are going through. post and keep posting and read threads, remember we are all here for you. pm me if you want to talk. try to stay strong and get help if you can, like helpinutah sd call all the local offices, they may be able to help you. just know you are not alone. we are here for you. try to count your blessings, that helps me.


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by sunset555, Dec 08, 2008
Hello Mags, whilst I don't know exactly why you are depressed I cannot comment, but what I can say is that it would be a very good idea to talk to somebody whether it be a counsellor or whoever! I know they are very expensive to see, so I was just wondering do you have any free telephone services set up in the States run by the Samaratins (we have in Ireland) that would be a good start if you do, cause you can ring up and talk for as long as you want to somebody who is going to lend a helping and supportive ear. (Just a thought).

You say you have been crying every day for a few weeks now, boy do I know only too well what that actually feels like and I know it is not very nice at all!!!!! I'm currently going through a seperation since Aug/Sept of this year and believe you me the crying does get less and eventually ceases (for a while anyway!).

I will pray for you and hope that things in your life turn around for you, God is good, and try your best to keep your faith.

Things tend to work out for everyone in the end, they usually do.

Please PM me anytime you want to talk about anything and I will make sure that I am there for you.

Lots of very best wishes,

Sharon. X

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by mags59, Dec 09, 2008
Thank you all so much for your prayers and comments.  It helps to know I'm not alone; that someone is thinking about me.  Sunset555, I wish we had something like the Samaritans here in the States; they sound like a life-saver.  I so much appreciate all of your thoughts and prayers to lift me out of this horrible black hole.  I know it will eventually get better, but for right now I just hurt so much.


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