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feeling like ****

Dec 10, 2008 - 0 comments

Ug, just one of those "not so good" days, woke up too many times last night, and just feel out of it today.
Yesterday did a floor  with OSB and my backs really feeling it, and all the dust from the old place has set up in my nose and chest, so its messing with me...I hate construction, hopefully Ill be getting a call back from my previous employer to get me back to what I can tolerate.
Im thinking of calling in, and just chilling out today, Sad thing is, is that I work for My uncle right now, and hes completely oblivious on how anxiety controls a person, or how sometimes we need a bit more of a break.
so If I call in I'll hear it for sure from him, and he'll probably act like his normal self and  try to talk me down "doesnt effect me" but I dont like the fact that my uncle cant cut me some slack, thats why I chose to work with him on my road back to normal, so I could get a little bit more slack.....stressful is the word to call it working for him.
its almost not worth it.
Ive also been thinking alot about quitting smoking cause thats messing with me too, its just really hard when I have anxiety.


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