Dec 15, 2008
Well today is my first day on Accutane. I am actually on the generic equivalent of the drug. I hope that this will work and I will soon be acne free. I have suffered from acne since I was about 17 years old. With each pregnancy my acne has gotten worse. I have been told by numerous dermatologists that I have an overactive sebaceous gland. I have been on Accutane before and it worke wonders. The only side effects that I suffered from were dry mouth, lips an eyes. I remember the dry lips being the worst part of it.
I also am going to make this my weightloss journal. Today I am starting to diet. I also will be trying to consume more water because I have been drinking so much soda lately that my urine has been dark and very cloudy. Also I have been suffering from swollen ankles and legs. I have been having a hard time getting around and can no londer cross my legs. I have lost all interest in my family and school and I find it hard to get out in public because I am so depressed about my size. I eat junk all day long and do not get proper exercise. I have yo-yoed back and for with my weight hardcore for about 4 years. I have been down to 140 and back up to my current weight of 220. It is very depressing to have a closet full of clothes and nothing to wear. I am also tired of not wanting to be intimate with my husband because of my current size. I know that is not fair to him. My grandmother passed away recently and I am having lots of regret because I didn't go see her more often. I am always so self conscious about my weight that I don't want to be around anyone. I know that I will feel better about myself if I lose some weight, start exercising and start eating right. It has worked in the past I just have a hard time getting and staying motivated. Hopefully this journal will help me to keep track of my progress as well as express my feeling.