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Blessed

Dec 17, 2008 - 0 comments

We've been through so much in the past couple of months, and have a longg road ahead of us, especially if he has complications from the brain bleeds...but we are still so blessed.  
The baby next to Brady in the NICU died today.  He's been there for at least 6 months I think.  He was a 22 weeker just like Brady (I don't know if I've ever told y'all the story, but Brady was really only 22 1/2 weeks..they messed up the dates and I didn't stop them bc I didn't think they'd save him if he was under  23 weeks...so we've just been calling him a 23 weeker), and he actually had NO brain bleeds...but he had a lot of other problems.  I was there, and everyone started running around like crazy...his heartrate was in the 20s for a while...I heard his mom crying..the dr was rushing it...it was sad.  No one should ever lose a child.  From what I've gathered, he was in a lot of pain.  So it's good he's with Jesus now and pain-free!  But it's just still so sad.  We've had a lot of problems....and Brady was really sick at first (one of the Dr's was really trying to get us to take him off of life support...), and he was vented for 2 1/2 months which isnt good...but this other baby was vented the whole6 months.  I don't think he even got to full feeds yet, which Brady has been on for a long time.  What made Brady turn out okay (so far), and the other one not?  It doesn't seem fair, and I actually even fell guilty because Brady is doing so well right now.  I know that God has a purpose for Brady's life, and a purpose for taking the other baby's life so young...but that's easy to say when it's not my baby.  I feel so bad for his mom.  Keep her in your prayers please.  I don't even know her...but I know she needs prayers.  
When things seem like they're going bad in your life, just don't forget to stop and think...they could always be worse...and we are blessed.  
Geez, I've been pretty sappy lately!  haha


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