Dec 26, 2008
I have in my mind that I WILL shake this problem. Today I am actually suffering from a cold and feel like ****. Guess God is foreshadowing my CT days that are coming soon! I am excited, but yet scared! It seems that since I have been introduced to pain meds...... for some reason I have become a wimp, when it comes to being uncomfortable. I used to handle pain soooooo well. The meds have caused me to "FREAK OUT" if you will, when it comes to the thought of hurting! These pills have also caused me to OBESS about being depressed. Its like I constantly think about being scared.... about being depressed. Not sure if this would make since to anybody else, but it is crazy how the meds will "mess" with your mind!
I never though that I would feel better journaling my feelings, but I have felt that I have let go of a lot of things by doing this. The people that I have met here in this room have been my saving grace!! I thank GOD for leading me here! I know I am gonna do it this time!! I will stay off of this **** forever! JANUARY 28th is getting closer and don't think it can get here fast enough!!