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Jul 02, 2012 - 4 comments

I've been TCC since July 2007..I've been through so much.. HSG tests that ruined my tubes.. pills.. shots.. surgeries.. BFN after BFN.. Then being told my endometriosis came back and  both my tubes need removed. I gave up on all of it.. I couldn't stand seeing or hearing someone was pregnant..  now 5 years later Sol Zacharia is almost here.. 5 weeks left. I know I can't be pregnant with him and feel him move inside me. But I will be his mommy and he'll love me and I'm already so in love with him. I need him with me so much it hurts, he's all I think of dream of.. I breath him.  I picture him with me and my husband and it's a dream come true..

I do NOT regret my fertility issues, if I didn't have my fertility issues it wouldn't have brought me to him.
life didn't have me carrying my own children in store for me.. it had Sol in store for me and it made me wait.
I have learned so much through my TCC journey.. I have patience I never dreamed I could have.. and an appreciation that is over whelming to my Bmom for giving me my son.  

He will be the most beautiful baby in the world and he'll be all mine.. I have given it a LOT of thought and if possible I would like to donate my eggs after the adoption is finale. I want to give a gift because someone gave me one.
If I could carry a child for someone I would do it in a heart beat.

I will never in my life regret what I road TCC took me and my husband through.. if I hadn't done everything I had then I wouldn't have been brought to my son.

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by sbumblebeeo, Jul 02, 2012
Way to go you TOAD!  Now I'm crying.  

You are so right though... your son will be the most beautiful baby in the world and he will love you for the rest of his life b/c you will be a wonderful mother to him.

I luv you so much.  I can't wait for your dream to come true!!!!!!!


XOXO

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by Wits777, Jul 02, 2012
:) You're a wonderful friend. You've been their everyday for 5 years! I couldn't thank you enough!

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by sbumblebeeo, Jul 02, 2012
Oh yeah.... well juuuuuuust wait until I show up on your door wanting to sleep on your couch and hold your baby.  (Only for about three days though)

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by Wits777, Jul 02, 2012
LOL BRING IT ON!!!

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