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AM I A DIFFERENT PERSON???

Jul 17, 2012 - 4 comments
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too harsh?

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advice needed

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This is my first entry after 426days clean.I am always on my phone on the mobile site and this is maybe the2or3rd time Ive been on a desktop here.I guess I am just pondering someting.I have tried to give back,give advice to the absolute best of my knowledge.Ive noticed recently(very the last few days)after not being on her a week or two my advice seems more blunt.Not to people quitting as I know a gentle hand is what I needed at first.This has only been on a couple posts(and maybe in my head who knows)but I responded to 2 different threads today.1was about the woman who got caught at the pharmacy cause she had been writing her own scripts and an investigator is calling her.The other is from a guy who has been with a woman a year and a half(she has6kids),het met her n severe debt has been bailing her out since day one and she is continually relapsing.I am realizing that as I responded to these posts I was brutally honest.I wasnt like that a while back.I ALWAYS tried to be very kind.I feel like maybe because I have a little clean yime under my belt maybe I am forgetting what its like to be active in my addiction.I by no means think I am better than anyone but Im worried I may be coming off that way and thats not my intention.I simply feel like now its best when the answer is so obvious to just be blunt.Should I take abreak from the forum?I dont know.I wish someone could tell me if Im being mean.I am not even sure how this journal thing works and if others can read it(i have never read anyones and didnt notice it until right now.I am hoping u all can read this and tell me what u think(I hope this is public for everyone to read.
I have nothing but the best intentions and dont want to be cruel or hurtful.Oh I c this can be public good.PLEASE if u have the time maybe give me your opinion(if u can read my responses to those 2 threads.Thanks to anyone who takes the time to help me. Sabrina

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1416133 tn?1351123217
by ImDONENoMore, Jul 17, 2012
I've read your replies and I don't think you were being hurtful at all.  Not one bit.  Brutally honest - and I do that sometimes too and I also wonder, am I beginning to forget what those days were like?  Actually, no, I don't think I've forgotten.  But I have been frustrated and it is only out of concern.  Like it has been for you.

Sometimes the truth is hard to hear - I DO remember being told I had a problem by my husband and I refused, many times, to listen to him or take what he was saying to heart.  I would dismiss him, tell him everything was fine (CLEARLY it was not) - and I was in complete and utter denial.  I think it's because we can identify with the person that causes that kind of reaction.

Keep posting - what you're doing here isn't cruel.  It comes from the heart and you're here because you want to give back right?   And I think it's our responsibility, and obligation, to try to do just that in the best way we know how.

:)

I believe it's because we can relate to another addict that we react

1416133 tn?1351123217
by ImDONENoMore, Jul 17, 2012
Ignore that last sentence... that's what happens when you're typing too fast for your thoughts!  LOL!

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by overopiates, Jul 17, 2012
Thank u.I really appreciate it.I had the same thing happen kinda.My husband tried the kind amd gentle u have a problem thing for a long time.It wasnt until he got BRUTAL.Threatened to leave.WORST WAS a video(dnt think I ever shared that with u all).He recorded me on his [email protected] ***@**** was"fine"(using that term loosly)til my son was n bed then after2days about2-3hrs of sleep total&30+10mg tabs I decided I was sleepy but didnt wanna sleep.took5more(knocked me out sitting up n a chair where I guess I opened my bottle to take more&passed flat out.Dnt remember.The video was humiliating to say the least.Pills dumped out all around me,im half on a chair but my head is almost on the floor.Turns my stomach thinking of that.WHAT IF MY son came out and saw me.By the grace of god he didnt.But that&the talk w/my husband was my bottom.Thanks for the encouragement.ur always great.

1700643 tn?1464846682
by overopiates, Jul 17, 2012
The marked out part was about my son being n bed.

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