Jul 22, 2012
It's been two months since my boys arrived. I can't believe it. The time is going so fast. When I first came home with the boys I was nervous but I felt good about being able to handle everything. Boy was I wrong. lol
I thought I had confidence in my decisions regarding them, but I'm finding I question everything. Now I'm sure this is normal for new moms and I keep reminding myself. Actually everyone keeps reminding me. They have no choice but to remind me because about every 3 days I lose my mind. It's not a pretty sight but I also know this too is normal for new moms. I thought I'd write this today for those of you who are about to have your babies and those future mommies.
There are going to be many people in your life that are going to offer advice, opinions and suggestions. That's great - some of their ideas will be helpful especially if they have experience in child care. But then there are going to be times when no matter what everyone is telling you, you are having different feelings on the whatever the subject matter is. I am lucky because I have a BF that is a nanny. She's been a nanny for over 20 years and she lives in California now, a nanny to two young boys. One of them is autistic. I have so much more respect for her now because she has the absolutely hardest job in the world. I'm also lucky that both of my parents have been staying with us during the week. Thank God I have them. I have no idea how dh and I would manage the two boys without their help. Especially since my dh has gone back to work,the nights would have been a nightmare for us.
Anyway what I'm really trying to write here is that ladies please trust yourself gut feelings when it comes to your baby. My BF tells me every day that is my biggest issue, I second guess everything. She tells me you are the "Momma Bear!" If you feel something is wrong then do what you feel is right. I'm trying to learn how to do this now. It's not easy for me anyway. Yes, recently something has happened (nothing life threatening) - I was listening to everyone else's advice instead of trusting my inner feelings and guess what? I should have listened to myself and do what I wanted to do. So now I know. I guess you learn through your mistakes. I just had to write this out - work through my feelings and now I feel better. lol. Every day is a challenge but its a gift from God and I'm going to do my best to learn how to become a mommy.