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Aug 01, 2012 - 2 comments

I need to vent….I need to scream….I need to cry….I need to calm down!
This process is such a brain game. This morning in the shower I could hardly get near my breasts they’re so tender and instead of letting myself think “maybe we’re pregnant” I shot myself down to acknowledge that it’s 7dpiui and it’s just the hormones I am taking that are making me feel this way.
I do really think this time around I am not thinking about “IT” as often and am handling the hormones so much better. I hate to say that I am used to feeling crazy all the time. I am optimistic. I am hopeful. This time it did work…right there I wanted to say and if not…UGH.
I have my good days and I have my harder days….today is a harder one- why it’s beautiful here today? I am leaving work early with pizzas to share with one of my best girlfriends and her two beautiful children…I must have PMA (Positive Mental Attitude) –repeat 3x and breathe.

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by cheekyhalfs, Aug 02, 2012
Lol...don't worry all your thoughts & feelings are completely normal! As you will see from all the med help ladies, this ttc business is one of the toughest, cruelest, most emotionally challenging & rewarding thing I think we go through! One day you feel quite good, optimistic even and literally half an hour later you hit rock bottom convinced its not worked etc.

I'm afraid the only advice I can give you is to talk about it (with your hubby & med help friends), take each day as it comes and remember that every cycle is different. I've had 4 now, 2 iui's and 2 ivf's - my last ivf in June totally surprised us with a bfp but sadly ended just after 5 weeks. I was also very ill during my treatment and was admitted to hospital - I thought it was game over then, but we still got a positive. Even though it ended (and after 3 yrs ttc trust me we were utterly heartbroken & devastated), I still feel positive enough to try again, albeit it after a bumpy ride and there are still days/hours I wonder is there any point.....and we also all deal with things differently in life too. Most of my family etc have asked how on earth I've remained to strong throughout everything, and to be honest I don't think I have a lot of the time, but what will be will be and we can only do our best to try help things along the way and then it is out of our hands!

I can give you lots of advice my hospital & acupuncturist has given me over the past couple of years if you like, you only have to ask.  

I hope this cycle brings you your long awaited bfp....and if not, please remember to stay strong and everyone on here will help you throughout :)

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by jackie722, Aug 03, 2012
I think it will happen when it's meant to be. When husband n wife are at the strongest, mentally, financially, ...Give yourself a chance and be patient... :-D all good things come in time... you will see

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