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Jan 09, 2009 - 1 comments

So it's been forever since I've written anything in here... sometimes it just helps to put everything down. So, hubby and I have been ttc for 3 1/2 years now. It's like I've gone through all of the emotions so many times, that I'm just numb - I have no emotions left. I did take a break for quite a while last year. We just stopped trying. It was the best thing I could have done. However, two months ago, we started trying again. It seems that my "break" helped me emotionally, but physically - we still can't seem to get pg. His vacation time just really ***** - he earns one day per month. Which they just started, and which means that I'll have to wait to set up an appt for us. But I'm planning to. We have to go to my obgyn, 2 hours away. I plan to go in, make sure that we've done and tested for everything we could have. And then we will start discussing IUI - which I never, ever though I would consider. I never thought there was anything wrong with IUI - I just so bad wanted everything to happen naturally. And it hasn't, and, well, I just can't wait anymore. I am ready to start a family NOW - I have been ready for over 3 years, and I just can't wait anymore. So we'll check into this - I'm afraid of the amount of money that it will cost us, and the time we will both have to use away from work... wouldn't it be nice to just have it happen on it's own, so that we could save that time and money for when our baby would be born? Life just doesn't work that way, I guess. I'm trying to stay positive, trying not to go back to being so depressed as I look at other people's children. It's hard, but at least I have something to look fwd to now. Hopefully we can get an appt in the next month or two...

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by candie429, Jan 09, 2009
Hey there!  Welcome back!  :)  I've often wondered how you were doing.  I'm glad to hear that you took a break and are feeling better, but after 3 1/2 years, I'm sure it's incredibly frustrating and disappointing.  We've just hit the 2 1/2 year mark and sometimes I'm just not sure where the past 2 years have gone!  We'll be married 5 years in May and DH is turning 30 soon and we were really hoping to have a family (even 2 children) by now.  I'm sorry to hear that DH's vacation time isn't the greatest.  It is hard to figure out how to manage this whole process, not only physicially, but emotionally and financially as well.  I hope that you are able to see you're OBGYN and get back on track with everything.  I can completely relate to you wanting everything to happen naturally.  We have been struggling with that exact same thing, espcially since our doctors can't find anything wrong with us.  We are so very ready to start our family too, but you're right, we just need to stay positive and focus on the good things that we do have and have faith that the best is yet to come!  :)  If you ever need to talk, you know where to find me.  So happy to have you back!  

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