It's been so long since I've actually felt like I had this disorder. I know it sounds strange but it's true. Once my moods were stable, I never, really felt bipolar. I had a few mood swings here and there, but nothing what I had before my diagnosis.
I'm not sleeping well again. My moods are all over the map again. I have trouble concentrating again (and this is by far the most frustrating!). I'm having trouble keeping things straight in my head. I have NO motivation to do ANYTHING. My energy comes in spurts. I'm anxious about everything all the time. It's just the lowest of the low. I'm lucky to have had no psychosis so far. I seem to be keeping that at bay, but I'm not one to take those kinds of chances. I'm going to call my pdoc today and see if I can schedule an appointment within the next couple of weeks. I have a little money saved up and hopefully I'll be able to buy at least one medication to get me back on track. I'm fed up with these moods. I want my calm, serene self back!