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Letters From the Heart: For You On Our Wedding Day ♥

Jan 11, 2009 - 2 comments

So my fiance and I have decided that we want to write letters to each other, saying how we feel and what we mean to each other, and then give them to each other on our wedding day. Something to keep and treasure for always.. I have sort of a rough draft and would love you ladies opinions..




"You Saved Me"

Life for me hasn't exactly been perfect. I grew up in a home where love wasn't readily given and instead screaming, anger and violence ruled. As I grew up I made one promise to myself, and that promise was that I would
find a man who was kind, decent and that would never raise a hand to me. A man who wasn't afraid to show affection. I was going to have a home full of love, unlike the home I grew up in.

As i found myself turning 17 I met a wonderful man who wisked me off my feet. I was in love.. totally head over heels in love. A couple months went by and things were amazing, until we got into a fight and he hit me. I was shocked and mortified, how could this man
that I loved with all of my heart and I thought loved me do something like this? I was an emotional wreck.. days went by and he finally called. He apologized and told me he was very sorry and this would never happen again. I believed him even though my mind was screaming "No.. you fool.. you know better. Remember your mother and father?". We ended up staying together for 4 long year. And over those 4 years I was abused, cheating on and pretty much made to feel worthless. He finally broke up with me and I was devasted.

I was working long, long hours just so I would forget him. At work there were lots of people I talked to and I guess you could say I was friends with. Then there was you. We hadn't really talked alot, maybe a passing hi now and then. But one day we struck up a conversation, and  I knew .. I just knew it was you. Every day I would go to work excited to get to talk to you.. to learn more about you.


As a month went by.. we began to grow closer. We would talk about anything and everything. Political conversations and conversations about our families. I was falling.. slowly but surely.. in love with you. There were so many times I tried to tell you how I felt, but fear had stopped me. Fear that you didn't feel the same way, Fear that we would loose our friendship , and fear that you would feel the same way. Finally one day at work I was having the most god aweful day , and you came up to me and asked me what was wrong.. the dam broke. I voiced all of my concerns, all of my fears, and I told you how I felt. You stood there stunned.. no reaction on your face.. I though the worst.. and then finally you said "So you wanna give us a try?". Those were the most beautiful words I had ever heard up until that point in my life.


We both fell in love so deeply that I felt like my life could not get any better. I finally found the man I had envisioned when I was younger. I was so sure my life was complete. Then eight months later... something happened, something that would change our lives forever.
We found out we were going to have a child. At first we were both terrified.. I mean we were only in our early twenties, no real careers established.. living  in a one bedroom effiency. But as usual.. you were the voice of reason, while I was crying and scared to death you were calm,
and comforting. You told me it would all be ok.. and I believed you with all of my heart.


We made plans.. we were gonna do this right.. First a home.. we bought our first home together in Feb of 2007... our child was gonna have a home =D .  In April we found out we were gonna have a baby girl. I was so excited and so were you. Our love had created a beautiful baby girl. Right there at
that moment I said a little prayer .. thanking god for everything he had blessed me with and asking why me? what had I done so right to deserve such blessings? . I also made a promise to myself.. I would make sure our baby girl never had to go through what I did when I was a little girl. She would be
raised in a home with lots of love.. she would always know the feelings of being safe, and loved. She would be able to look up to her mother and father as examples,, maybe even heros.


She finally arrived after 3 long days in labor .. but every single ounce of pain was worth it because now I could look at my baby girls face.. I could hear her little crys.. I could kiss her little cheeks. And I knew you felt the same way as I did.. I looked at you holding our baby girl for the first
time and I swear I heard a "hallajuah" . You two looked so perfect together.. her knestles so deeply in your arms.. you looking down at her with such love.. you were so proud. You looked over at me and said " I love you baby".. I said it back and I knew that I had found the life I had always wanted..
the life I had dreamed of as a child..


As I sit here and write this I want you to know that tears are streaming freely down my face , not because I am sad, but because I am so incrediably happy and blessed. I can't wait to become your wife and share the next fifty to sixty years with you.. I never thought this kind of happiness was achievable but thanks to
you and our beautiful daughter I know it is. I consider myself one of the lucky ones.


In all honesty, Matthew, You & our daughter saved my life.


Kenny Chesney "You Saved Me"

Every now and then I get a little lost
My strings all get tangled, my wires all get crossed
Every now and then I'm right up on the edge
Dangling my toes out over the ledge
I just thank God you're here

'Cause when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun
'Cause when I'm a firecracker comin' undone
Or when I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild-eyed and crazy
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Baby you save me

It's hard lovin' a man that's got a gypsy soul
I don't know how you do it, I'm not sure how you know
The perfect thing to say to save me from myself
You're the angel that believes in me like nobody else
And I thank God you do

'Cause when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun
When I'm a firecracker coming undone
When I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild-eyed and crazy
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Baby you save me

I know I don't tell you nearly enough
That I couldn't live one day without your love

When I'm a ship tossed around on the waves
Up on a highwire that's ready to break
When I've had just about all I can take
Baby you, baby you save me

When I'm a bullet shot out of a gun
When I'm a firecracker coming undone
When I'm a fugitive ready to run, all wild-eyed and crazy
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Baby you save me





I hope you know each and every word on this piece of paper has come from heart..


Always and Forever Yours
  Ang


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by ickvc, Jan 11, 2009
Perfect. My hubby and I wrote vows we read to each other and then had them printed nicely and hung on the wall in our bedroom.  Kind of a daily reminder of them.

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by pinkbelle, Jan 12, 2009
thank you.. its very personal and I thought that would be the way to go... i wanted him to know just how much i love him and what he means to me =D

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