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Hiding from baby's

Aug 19, 2012 - 1 comments

Ao yesterday was my s-I-L's s-I-L has a infant baby so while at by husbands neiphews bday party everyone was googling over this baby except for me. Me I was hiding beside my husband trying to keep from getting emotional and resentful. For the most part it worked. Then at the end of the party and the family with the baby was leaving the mother came up to me and asked if I would want her 7 year old daughter. I just looked at her and then looked away. I couldn't say anything, I couldn't even shake my head. I wanted to smake her and run off crying. I want it to be me, I want to be a mother and I want to stop resenting people with baby's and anything that has to do about baby.

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by kellibubba, Aug 19, 2012
I know exactly how you feel. Yes I'm blessed with 2+ 1 babies but I still resented babies when I couldnt have one. I hid from all pregnant ladies and anything baby. I'm positive your time will come...

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