Jan 16, 2009
Well, yesterday was one of my best days yet! I had an okay night last night, but still have the sweats and then get cold. However, it isn't anything like it was, so I am very thankful. For the first time this morning I didn't wake up before my alarm went off. I was in a dead of sleep this morning and really didn't want to get up. Usually I HAD to get up because I was feeling so terrible and restless. So maybe I'm getting some where!
I'm having a few leg issues this morning, but I think once I get up and around they will start feeling better. I still have very little pain compared to how I was feeling before going off of the Tramadol. My mind is starting to clear more and more every day and I feel my mood lifting more as well. I've been taking my SAMe regularly and that might have something to do with it.
I've been trying to set small goals for each day to get done. I think after my nighmare grocery store trip, I'm trying to take things slow. Yesterday my goal was to sit down and pay bills. I some how got through it and am very proud of myself. Paying bills has been a nightmare for me in the past. Just trying to figure out how much was going to go where sent me over the edge and most of the time we got by on a wing and a prayer. This is something I really want to get back in order now that my mind is clear and my attitude towards things is getting better.
So, today I have to get some work done. I have people waiting on custom orders and I have only gotten one done in the last few weeks. I used to be very productive with getting lots done per week. That's when I was running on robot mode though. One day at a time I'm telling myself.