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Round 3 of ivf - feeling rather low!!

Aug 30, 2012 - 11 comments

So I'm starting my shut down meds tonight (buserelin injections) and I just feel so emotional and nervous! :( I feel I could just burst into tears any second.

I've also just found out my best mate who I work with, who's currently on mat leave, has handed in her notice and I'm gutted. I havent been enjoying my job since my m/c and the only thing keeping me going there was the though that she was due back very soon, and now I've lost her too :(

I know Im just feeling emotional with the thought of another ivf, and after how poorly I got last time after ER, and then getting my long awaited bfp only to lose it.....

Lordy I'm not even on the meds yet and already all over the place lol!  I'm so nervous :( I'm not sure my heart can take another disappointment.

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by Durban81, Aug 30, 2012
sorry my friend. i am thinking of you and sending prayers your way. I have been MIA as so much going on - we have had to put TTC on hold for a while

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by tiadreams, Aug 31, 2012
Hey Cheeky, I understand the emotional aspect completely. I get so worked up on the drugs (The smallest pills are always the worst ones!), that I'm scared to be around myself. I'm doing a natural FET this time and started Estrace tablets 4 days ago. I waver between crying and freaking out all day long. And, it's so strange how all the emotions return from our previous experiences. I'm using donor eggs this time but I am so scared that I will get a call that the embryos stopped developing which is what happened when I used my own eggs on my IVF cycle. I know it is insensible to think that I will have nothing to transfer when using donor eggs, but still I am terrified that this will be the news. Tomorrow will be day 3 of their development so tomorrow comes my next phone call. My stomach is in knots. My acupuncturist lent me a cd to listen to. It is called "A Journey of the Heart...Meditations for a Fertile Soul" It is peaceful music combined with breathing exercises and helps you to relieve stress. Even though I started crying when I was doing the exercises I recommend the cd if you can find it. It was very helpful. Since the docs found nk cells in your uterus are they giving you something to help with this? My acupuncturist also recommends eating lots of pinneapple because it contains high levels of bromelaine which is supposed to aid conception. I wish you the best in your 3rd round. This is the toughest journey any woman can face in her lifetime. One or two other women on here also had nk cells but succeeded in carrying to term. I'll look them up for you.

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by cheekyhalfs, Aug 31, 2012
Hi there

Completely agree, this is without a doubt the toughest thing I have ever faced in my life.

So are you due for transfer soon then?  I wish you all the luck in the world I really do.  I don't think you are being insensible at all, each stage of the IVF process is a hurdle I think, so to get the to end with everything going well is such a relief!

My NK cells are very high, almost 8x the amount so yeah I take steroids to assist any IVF/IUI's (prednisolne I think they are called).  I've heard so many ladies on here mentioning eating pineapple core - is this what you mean?

This is my 3rd IVF and I'm so praying for all the three's...I turned 33 this year, 3rd IVF etc :o)

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by Shannon79, Aug 31, 2012
Awww hun, I'm so sorry to hear you're going through all this.

I honestly can't say I know how you feel, because I don't. All I can do is keep you in my prayers, and hope and pray that you get your next BFP very soon.

Please keep us posted.

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by tiadreams, Sep 03, 2012
Hey Cheeky, Pinneapple (especially the core) when eaten by itself is supposed to have strong anti-inflammatory properties which I guess helps our bodies to accept the baby. The steroids should do the trick. Acupuncture is supposed to help also so if you haven't done this yet you could add it into your cycle. My transfer is scheduled for 9/12 provided my DE blasts survive the thaw ok. Juana ate 3 pinneapple cores the day of her transfer and she just had her baby boy a week ago. Maybe with all the threes throwing in 3 pinn cores wouldn't hurt! Crossing fingers and toes for you. xoxo

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by cheekyhalfs, Sep 03, 2012
Cool, I will definitely look into the pineapple :) I'm already seeing an acupuncturist thanks, she is amazing and has helped us so much already, and will be there every step of the way again for this next cycle (whenever it may be...)

So all being well your transfer is really soon, I bet you are really excited/nervous.

Haha yeah I'm definitely sticking with the 3 is good luck, although the thought of triplets would terrify me lol, but of course I will take whatever I am blessed with as long as healthy :)

Wishing you loads of luck, I'll keep an eye on your page for updates xox

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by Uenvythis, Oct 09, 2012
im sorry you are feeling this way. i undertsand and have felt the same way. i hope u r looking up and r in better spirits when u get this. im on day 5 of ivf cycle #2. i had a negative result to the ivf #1.
we have pick ourselves up from the floor amd start again.

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by cheekyhalfs, Oct 09, 2012
Hi uenvythis

Thanks for the friendship request :) thankfully I am much more happier than I was when I wrote this, I had a rough time with ivf 2 and ended up in hospital, getting a bfp & then having an early m/c.

But that's all in the past, and I'm now 1dp5dt with ivf hoping 3 is my lucky number lol. I have my beta on 18th!

So are you 5days post transfer?? Wishing you all the luck in the world ;)

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by renae176, May 21, 2013
so cheeky did it work this time are you preg. cause im doing my first IVF in July, and just redaing what all u went through , im scared

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by TTC2006, May 21, 2013
She just had her baby shower Renae. :)   It worked and she's very pg now. :)

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by cheekyhalfs, May 22, 2013
Hi renae176, it most certainly did work :-) as the lovely TTC mentioned I've just had my baby shower and am 8 months pregnant, I just cannot believe it. (Hope you're well TTC)

Renae. I will reply to your pm when I get a little more time ok and am not so sleepy :) it's understandable to be scared, this whole ttc business is very tough so you're not alone!

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